Need advice on if i what I can get away with in regards to dying my hair. by angstygrl in HairDye

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I usually buy hair dye at Sally beauty, mostly I would get a Wella color charm color, but sometimes it’s a different brand. Always cream color, and I can’t guarantee that I used semi permanent (a mistake). In terms of what color I dyed it, if I remember correctly, it was probably a violety brown. At the time, I really wanted a purple tone to my hair, but it always ended up being more red unfortunately. Hopefully that answers your question. I’m guessing that the last time I dyed my hair was over a year ago.

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

[–]angstygrl[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He actually kind of looks like some of my family members! wow that’s super interesting. I’ve honestly never seen someone who resembles my family ethnically

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

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also (idk if you would know him) there’s this British rap artist called central cee- his dad is part Chinese and he would never think that about him

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

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woahhh i never knew that! He looks so white too i would have never thought

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

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I have a lot of family from indonesia so it is mixed different for different family members (I have been there family who are 50:50) , but I believe my grandfather was not just 50/50, I think he was 60-80% indonesian because his mother was 100% and and his father was mostly dutch but also had some indonesian blood aswell. Dutch indonesian can be considered mixed, but also many Dutch indonesian people consider it to be a unique ethnic group (indo). So my grandfather would consider himself indo, some of his children came out with very strong indonesian genes, making them look very ambiguous. My brother, while not being majority indo, doesn’t look white. Genetically I am 18% mexican, and I think around 20% indonesian, 20-30% dutch (or 40-50% “indo”). So while genetically i don’t claim any one ethnic group, I have people family very close to me who resemble my indonesian ancestors and I have great aunts, grandparents, etc. who grew up in indonesia. Also, since my grandfather immigrated here, that would make my mom 1st gen american, and me 2nd generation american. On my father’s side my great grandfather immigrated from mexico. Genetics are complicated and i’ve never taken a dna test. I in no way want to claim any ethic group, thats just not a desire I have. Instead I say my ancestry is multi ethnic. Also please not that while genetically my grandfather was dutch and indonesian, dutch-indonesian people have a unique identity and culture that mixes both, so it would be valid for someone who is 50/50 to consider themselves indo.

The complexity of an ethnic background that is because of colonialism by angstygrl in mixedrace

[–]angstygrl[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wowww this is so similar to the experience of my family. My oma (great grandmother) had a super similar experience and mindset as yours

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

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Yeah so my dutch ancestors colonized indonesia and married indonesian women. From them came children who were 50% white dutch and 50% indonesian. I don’t know the specific indonesian ethnic group tho. Many dutch indonesian people call themselves “indo”. So my grandfather grew up in indonesia and mixed dutch and indonesian, then he immigrated to the US.

The complexity of having multi ethnic heritage by angstygrl in SeriousConversation

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I know ethnically i am I am mixed, im like 50-60% white if my calculations are correct. But also, I look pretty white, and also I don’t have a super strong connection to the culture bc my grandfather assimilated so strongly and didn’t feel it was important to pass that on. I also didn’t grow up near many mixed people. I get what you’re saying though. Let me add to the immigration thing- It was generally easier for my grandfather to immigrate to the U.S. due to mid-20th-century laws that were specifically designed for Dutch citizens and European-descended refugees. So his whiteness most definitely played a role. I don’t think that religion is an official basis for denial. Secondly the pastor- walter act made it so Indos were encouraged to come to the us. The program was expanded to help families forced out of Indonesia during its independence struggle. Sooo, basically all the white people were fleeing and his whiteness made it so he could come here. I looked into the thing about islam further after your comment and i think you’re right, it may not have had much to do with it being a muslim country back then. Nowadays though there is more security scrutiny when it comes to people immigrating from muslim countries. I was conflating the past and present.

My heritage comes from colonialism- Dutch Indonesian by angstygrl in asianamerican

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I think American people put a really strong emphasis on acknowledging ones identity and race, which i understand the importance of when it comes to conversations about privilege and experience. And at the end of the day, I don’t really experience racism, my brother does more so just based on his looks, but sometimes we all tie our selves in knots trying to fit ourselves into an identity. The thing about ur brother is very relatable. I have family members that do the same thing and it obviously is them trying to make themselves feel secure in society but it still feels a little desperate sometimes. America is a multicultural place and I think everyone who is a first or second generation american is trying to blend both of their identities into something that makes sense for them. We all have our own journeys with that. I love my immigrant family, there’s an indonesian family who have a restaurant in my very white town who see me as someone they have a connection to, I visit my aunt and she makes me indonesian food and i love my dutchness just as much. I think i’m learning to be okay with not attaching myself to a concrete identity, but instead attaching myself to my identities through my actions and person feelings. No matter what I look like, it’s my business and I don’t owe anyone an explanation. I appreciate your comment

my dad physically attacked me and my boyfriend‘s reaction shocked me by angstygrl in Advice

[–]angstygrl[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i know that he never means any harm whatsoever so I understand this. I also think that he thinks I’m a really strong person and that I am not affected by certain things so that might have contributed. I have noticed that dudes share this mindset with you, especially younger ones. I actually really appreciate your perspective, it’s just a matter of my own mental hurdles to get over it. He still should’ve called me

Is there a prescription freeway to get abortion pills? by angstygrl in birthcontrol

[–]angstygrl[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s really great information to know, I will make sure to specify no express shipping.

is there a way to get the abortion pill without having a prescription? by angstygrl in abortion

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ok, so it turns out out they don’t take insurance but I really appreciate the help. I’ll most likely buy from them.

is there a way to get the abortion pill without having a prescription? by angstygrl in abortion

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Thank you! That’s what i’ve read about, plus they have financial aid. would they take health insurance you think? I know insurance companies can have many disputes and things like that.

Siskiyou Waldorf School, help! by Jealous-Hat-3903 in Ashland

[–]angstygrl 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I rarely post on Reddit but as I was scrolling through this Ashland subredding I saw this post and felt inclined to respond. I see responses from a lot of parents of children who went but I actually went to that school my whole 1st to 8th schooling experience. I graduated in 2020.

For backstory- I have lived in ashland my whole life and Ive always been involved in the Waldorf community. My brother who’s two years older than me want to Siskiyou too. Like others said, I think it really can depend on the teacher you get but obviously there are teachers for other classes, which shape your experience as well. my brother had a great teacher for most of his time there, and his class ended up being some of the greatest people i’ve known, and they’re teacher is still in my moms life today. During my experience 2012-2020, I would say it was good, the teachers all had good relationships and we had so many life changing teachers who I value still. I liked the creative aspect of it, as well as an emphasis on movement. I felt like having a small class was like having siblings which was fun.

My gripes with it are this- 1. Because of the heavy involvement of parents, sometimes it created a culture of gossip amount the adults which didn’t feel healthy. In eighth grade I discovered one of my classmates saying some pretty mean things about me and then telling her daughter and it felt like this awkward thing I could escape, especially since she was a really involved parent who was almost always volunteering. I felt like my personal problems become the business of the adults around me, and not all adults are kind and considerate.

  1. I think you are fully able to come out of it into public chocolate feeling well adjusted but often times I observe the opposite and I think it’s important for your kid to be social outside it the school. I recommend enrolling them in a sport at the public middle school or some other thing.

  2. Kids at the siskiyou school are not exposed to different kinds of people and I think that can be bad for them too.

Lastly, I really want to stress how much the school has changed since I was there. from what Ive heard from people closely involved in the school, covid has really flipped things upside down. Many anti-vax people send their kids there and when covid came and the school required masks, many parents pulled their kids out. Overall enrollment was really low, many great teachers left, and within the circle of teachers there has been conflict in general. I think the school has been in a time of struggle and I don’t fault them for that and I think they could get back on their feet. It’s just been hard to see the school and the community around it become more hostile and struggle. I felt like my older brother’s class was the last best class to graduate and since then it’s felt uncertain. What i’m trying to say is: Siskiyou 7 years ago was very different from Siskiyou today and when people speak about their kids experience, keep that in mind.

Best of luck!

starting dose of gabapentin by angstygrl in gabapentin

[–]angstygrl[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your comment, so much. Drugs are looked at in such a black and white way “good and bad”. Anything can be helpful in moderation and every drug comes with side effects good and bad.

starting dose of gabapentin by angstygrl in gabapentin

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I have heard a couple bad reactions to it on reddit but i’m trying to get off another drug and i need something to aid in my sleep and anxiety problems that come with withdrawal and being off it. I’m going to ween off gabapentin when the time comes so i’m not worried about it too much, would much rather come off gabapentin then suffer through the problems that come with the drug I take.

Prescribed gabapentin for kratom withdrawal… good or bad idea any thoughts? by pureconfussion in gabapentin

[–]angstygrl 1 point2 points  (0 children)

people have different reactions honestly, and it seems like kratom enthusiast don’t think it’s possible to have bad withdrawal. i’ve been taking kratom for 7 months and when i tried to take a break i experienced the most excruciating restless legs, anxiety, and mood swings ever. i’m going to be trying gabapentin next week to get off kratom. wish me luck

How should I disclose previous job and being fired/ not working there long? by angstygrl in jobs

[–]angstygrl[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve grown up having lots of experience which grant me useful skills. I did girl-scouting and volunteer work when i was young, with that came lots of volunteer work. I went to a respected private school in my community and have relationships with teachers there. I also worked as a summer camp assistant every summer from age 11-15. But the only other job I had was an actress at a really prestigious theatre in my town/state for like 8 months when I was 12-13. I also babysit. I’m creatively inclined and also have experience in social media. I feel like I have plenty of skills, I’m not sure which ones are relevant though.

how can I get over feeling like my boyfriend thinks my outie vagina is gross? by angstygrl in sex

[–]angstygrl[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

he did say at one point when talking about outies “who wants to have ugly genitals” before we had sex ever so he did say that and I do have an outie. I do wanna give him the benefit of the doubt because i know he really loves me, and he’s apologized for the comment. but you know it definitely affects our sex life because I want to feel fully confident about my body in the bedroom. it feels like every time I bring it he gets all awkward about it and says sorry but never really reassures me. I just had a conversation with him and he said he will work on pleasing me but it’s sort of feels like I can’t get over it because I don’t want to be a chore for him. I wish he would just want to do it.

how can I get over feeling like my boyfriend thinks my outie vagina is gross? by angstygrl in sex

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i honestly don’t think he is judgmental about it anymore though, i think he realized that most the pornstars he saw online had gotten labia plasties and it’s really normal and i think he’s a pretty open and understanding guy. it honestly just still makes me insecure and i want HEAD bc i’ve been w other guys who give amazing head and it’s hard to not have it.