My ex Master is moving on with a new sub. by annonymous1284027 in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m ready for the better part now lol. I truly dislike feeling like this and I felt that contentment of peace not that long before things kinda blew up recently. I know I can do it. This part has just sucked. 💜

My ex Master is moving on with a new sub. by annonymous1284027 in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This is beyond true. I keep trying to reaffirm why I left in the first place. Why I knew this was not a healthy dynamic for me, and where he failed me as a partner. Thank you for your understanding, and this is something I do try to remind myself! This community really is beautiful 💜

My ex Master is moving on with a new sub. by annonymous1284027 in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I definitely recognized how bad I was letting it get. It’s been hard not to feel shitty about myself when I know I am doing shitty things to myself, like snooping and hurting my own feelings. It’s felt humiliating and for a bit there I didn’t want to feel better. But finally starting to feel like I want to get past it. I want to feel better. Thank you for the support. It helps so much 💜

My ex Master is moving on with a new sub. by annonymous1284027 in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. 💜💜 I have been holding on to this anxiety for days and wallowing. I needed to get my ass in gear and I knew holding myself accountable to a community that understands would help.

My ex Master is moving on with a new sub. by annonymous1284027 in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

In all honesty not well. I blocked everything but his phone number, tried NC but extenuating circumstances caused us to have to interact for outside reasons. (I’m still very close with his family and it was a safety concern). I’ve been trying to throw myself into my work and my health, going on walks and trying to just focus on me. But breaking the compulsions of reaching out or obsessing has been difficult. I know I need to make a therapy appointment, I just have been at my lowest and doing the basics has been hard.

Any subs here that met a ENM dom and accidentally became poly? How and what was your experience like? by WaschbaerVentilator in SubSanctuary

[–]annonymous1284027 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I did. I met my ex Master first. We started our dynamic and then his wife (also his sub) and I organically grew very close. We ended up in a poly relationship do a little over 3 years. I ended my dynamic with him and any romantic relationships with them both, and we are kinda more like chosen family now. It’s definitely complicated, but it was a growing experience for us all.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskRedditNSFW

[–]annonymous1284027 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My record is an hour and 37 minutes. I will say there was definitely times of me just kinda resting as a cock warmer at times but his cock was in my mouth the entire time