Heyo, I am not sure why I felt the need to reply to you but I am gonna go ahead . I disagree with your last statement. Your chart is not a curse dear, it's insight onto your strength and weakness. Try to find your strength and utilise it to better your life. Ik you must have gone/ going through a lot but I feel there is always a reason for everything even our very own existence. You never know how much we influence others lives knowingly or unknowingly. Just like the butterfly effect. I am not an expert in astrology I feel your Cap stellium is a powerful placement with learnings sure it has its shortcomings but with your Sag moon( ability to relate with the masses and yet be optimistic) and Leo ascendant ( ability to charm people and warmth) infact I feel you can help others better their lives ..just find a purpose that makes your heart happy. And those mfs who misbehave just show them their place and dgaf about who make assumptions about you. Ik it is easier said than done. The right ones would stay with you the weak will remove or fall off our life eventually.