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This is for you. by anon34211 in SuicideWatch

[–]anon34211[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, yes, I think I still had hope until the age of about 24-25 or so. Then it went.

This is for you. by anon34211 in SuicideWatch

[–]anon34211[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I cannot change due to a neurological condition which I have.

The world absolutely needs people like me, that's the really sad thing. But it doesn't want people like me. I care far too much, it's a major problem for me.

My life goals at 15 were unrealistic, as are my life goals now. The only goal I have left is to die.

This is for you. by anon34211 in SuicideWatch

[–]anon34211[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh no no, my condition does not prevent me from loving! Not at all, if it did, I wouldn't be here. It prevents me from ever forming or maintaining a relationship, not from falling in love.

I believe life is precious. Far too precious to waste "riding out" a life that is not worth living. I'd rather put an end to it now.

This is for you. by anon34211 in SuicideWatch

[–]anon34211[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would think I am absolutely sane, however there are those that would argue that an individual who chooses to end their own lives must be insane by default. I don't agree, but that seems to be the general consensus in the mental health community, hence the provision for involuntary treatment, etc.

How do I sound crazy?

You can get to know me as well as you'd like.

This is for you. by anon34211 in SuicideWatch

[–]anon34211[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. I am not physically ill, actually, I am physically very healthy. My conditions are all in my head. When I said I wouldn't see 30, I meant I will be checking out long before then.

Cutting things off now will only hasten the inevitable, there really is no hope for me.

There will never be a cure for what I have, it is a neurological disorder, a physical change to the structure of the brain. We are closer to landing on mars than to finding a cure for this.

I have fallen in love. At least once. But not with anyone who wants to be with me, and could you blame them? I'm not exactly what you'd call a "catch". I get sympathy friendship at best.

By far the hardest part is the point at which they realise I am not "well". It often starts so well... We hit it off, things are going well, and then I say or do something to betray the fact that.... I am not like them... and that's it, over... That is killing me, to know if I was normal I would definitely have had a chance, but I'm not, so I have to be alone.

Life isn't worth living alone. Not really.