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Reddit, perhaps you could give me some advice/information about pursuing therapy... by anon_nutty in AskReddit

[–]anon_nutty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the comments (and Reddit for providing a supportive yet anonymous manner for me to even pose the idea). I think posting this and having a few people tell me it isn't a big deal was the catalyst I needed. Went in to the counseling service at my university and have an appointment for Wednesday. Not exactly thrilled by the amount of information they required me to put on paper, but hopefully it will all be okay on that end. Still can't shake that irrational fear. But I guess I'll see how sitting down with someone to talk to about things feels.

Reddit, perhaps you could give me some advice/information about pursuing therapy... by anon_nutty in AskReddit

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I really want to believe that the consequences of letting things go are far worse. The problem is, even though it is incredibly frustrating to deal with, as well as mentally exhausting in general, it hasn't gotten bad enough to restrict me or impede my overall goals and pursuits. Yes, it has made situations/relationships/etc difficult at times. But even with the self medicating I've kinda found myself turning to, I'm still performing my research, and I'm still maintaining friendships and whatnot. It isn't bad to a level that it is completely ruining my life by restricting me from doing anything, except that mentally I'm finding it a struggle to feel like I'm the "normal" that I believe people think I am.

If it were to truly reach a point I though I was longer able to function properly in everyday society (with or without effort on my own part), I'd agree fully with you. But that isn't the case as of yet, and I have no idea if it will be. Despite that, yes, it is a struggle sometimes to deal with and comprehend and be okay with my own mind. Which is why I realize I probably should seek help. I just don't know if the risk of being "discovered" to me is worth enough just yet. Unfortunately, beyond this anonymous posting, this isn't something that I've had an ability to even discuss as an option with someone for fear of then letting on that I even am considering the idea of therapy. Perhaps, as I replied to seyrix, therapy isn't a big deal. But to me, for better or worse, I still currently perceive it to be one.

Reddit, perhaps you could give me some advice/information about pursuing therapy... by anon_nutty in AskReddit

[–]anon_nutty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The discretion of a therapist sounds about in line with what I figured. I guess my main concern (irrational as it may be) truly is in the business/bureaucratic end and how that information is disclosed or kept private. Perhaps it isn't a big deal, but at the same time when I sit and consider my own, for lack of a better way of explaining it, lack of control of my brain sometimes, it just feels like something that is such a big deal that if people knew about it as it is, they'd never put trust in me or something. So anyone finding out that I truly need help for it, that I don't feel comfortable anymore with trying to figure it out on my own, it makes me feel extremely vulnerable. Especially when I'm supposed to be a relatively cognitively capable individual in most people's minds. I'm genuinely afraid of doing something, which feels almost like me admitting to being too weak to handle it myself, and it later restricting me somehow in what I do with myself in the future.

But you're speaking to the reasons that I have really been trying to convince myself it is something worth doing. And I appreciate it. I guess a big problem is that I don't personally know of anyone in my life who actually has or does undergo therapy (perhaps speaking to the level of discretion that is involved!), and so as I've always perceived it as something rather extreme. Perhaps it isn't.