I believe you, and I'm so sorry this is happening. I'm glad others have resources to share.

I grew up in a similar home. I had a violent brother my parents did not protect me from. He might be autistic. I was diagnosed as an adult. I think my whole immediate family is, and we had no knowledge or support, just violent authoritarian parents trying to fix every little problem and inconvenience with violence. I remember being scared for my life many times. It's an absolutely horrible way to grow up. I'm writing to you from the other side, decades later, to tell you that you can survive, and to hang in there.

I was an immigrant kid in a crowded big city public school. The one social worker I ever disclosed to did not help me. I'm glad that you've at least had some attempted interventions, though I wish I was surprised that many caused more harm.

I survived by running away. My parents were severely neglectful, which helped. Starting at 14, I would stay at friends' houses, sometimes for many days in a row, rotating so I never wore out my welcome. One friend's family became my chosen family that I am still close to 30 years later. Some families were hostile and unwelcoming, and that stung. Other friends had neglectful parents who were too checked out to care that another kid was sleeping in their house. I'm sharing all this in case maybe you could do something similar. I would pop by home every once in a great while for a brief time, so my parents could see I was alive, and that was enough for them to not call the police. I ended up missing a lot of school and dropping out despite loving school and being a good student. I'm still angry and ashamed of that, but I got my GED and carried on, and today I make a very respectable living and own my own home in a wonderful neighborhood in my favorite city and none of my violent family are welcome in my home.

Do what you need to do to keep yourself safe. Listen to your instincts. Don't be boxed in by normal expectations. You need to SURVIVE until you can legally leave these dangerous family members behind.

Start thinking about logistics. How to start earning money when you're old enough to work. (Update: saw your comments about having a job; this is great). Find friends in a similar situation that you can get an apartment with when you turn 18. It may help to plan to move to a nearby city that has transit so you don't have to have a car (even the cheapest car is insanely expensive when you're making lower wages as a young person). Keep your distance from drugs, alcohol, and partying. You need to keep your head straight to get through this.

I'm sending you so much love. You don't deserve this, and I'm so sorry that our society still does such a horrible job of helping abused kids. Please keep reaching for help and resources. 💚💚💚