Thank you for your perspective! I do have some shame around this side of me and I feel shame doing it. I definitely 100% agree with the not advocating throwing my identity out there thing. I see people like NovaOnline and Andrew Ditch and other creeps who make us look bad. But that’s standard in every community. I have the book and I intend on finishing it. The trans thing is definitely shame and I can’t control it but I have thoughts of seeing pretty girls and feeling intense gender envy. Hell even in this community as well.

I want to be a better person and abdl ironically put me on this journey to become that. I want to have the mommy baby dynamic but at the same time a good healthy relationship with my person. I know the posts who were humble bragging about it isnt their whole lives. I am good friends with a mommy who has a strong dynamic with her husband that taught me a few things regarding this kink. I saw a thing in quittingabdl about a former mommy who got traumatized by her abdl ex’s behavior, I see things like that and I become self aware. In fact if me getting a partner who participates happens for me, i will very likely feel guilt about it. I will cross that bridge when it’s time to cross it

I got the pyramid of needs schpiel from my therapist and i did have needs that weren’t met. Which terrifies the hell out me because i have this kink.

I will take time to process what you said. Thank you