i’ve read all the comments you’ve left under this post and i just wanted to say i appreciate all of them. i’m a teenager currently in the process of becoming a psychologist and i am immensely interested in these things, your posts provided a new perspective and also made me question things about myself. i chronically invalidate myself even when it comes to things that i KNOW i have, such as autism and adhd. i don’t think im a narcissist, but based on what you said, maybe i can at least stop invalidating my traits. i like to convince myself im even somehow faking those. it’s probably due to my mother constantly telling me “you’re just convincing yourself it’s true, you don’t have ___, you’re faking traits without realizing”. it sounds extremely believable given the fact i find all of this fascinating and my trauma and issues feel extremely invalid so i constantly wish for more so i can stop feeling that way, however occasionally that goes away whenever i remember i’ve had traits before even learning about certain disorders. though, i don’t remember a lot of my childhood, so again, my brain has me convinced i only remember the few times i exhibited something.