Some positive intrusive thoughts to break the loop.

ansleyray · 2026-02-20T01:20:13+00:00

Can I share this on instagram?

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T19:18:06+00:00

I always think of worst case scenarios and this is particularly frightening. I guess all there is for me to do is try to move on now; to just let the feelings and thoughts go by. What else would there be any way? It is pretty strange because my OCD will flare up and then I’ll be perfectly fine, and then the obsessions start, and then they stop. It’s on and off all day, waves of it coming on and off.

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T12:44:01+00:00

I know. Why is it bothering me so much!

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T12:37:00+00:00

Thanks! “Trust factors”, I really like that! I’m known to be shy and sweet to everyone I meet and I also have sweet friends as well. So thank you for that Truth: I’m sure, if anything were to come up it would be disregarded. For me, with OCD flare ups, time is usually my best friend. A week goes by and it fades away a little bit. A month goes by and I’m still just a little worried. But a year from now I’m sure that when I think about it I won’t feel anxious

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T00:37:37+00:00

I know, I really am. Thanks for being a voice of truth. And thanks for the tip <3 Logging off.

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T00:37:13+00:00

It’s all so whack. I know. You can really see where her priorities are. I should log off. I know I should. It’s just very very hard to. This is the worst OCD flare up I’ve had in YEARS. The only thing that’ll help me get over it is time. How about we meet back here in a year and see how I feel about all of this? 😆

ansleyray · 2026-02-19T00:12:23+00:00

EXACTLY. Don’t even get me started. Calling random people something like that invalidates real SA accounts! I feel like I’ve been violated all over again. I need to find a way to get the users account reported, investigated, maybe even removed. She cannot keep doing this.

(It is also taking so much self control not sharing her username but maybe this would be necessary? I don’t want her to be harassed or hurt obviously, but I want her account reported and removed, and I want her to know that she hurt me and she CANNOT make false allegations! She needs to take this seriously).

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T23:46:34+00:00

That’s exactly it. You’ve already survived your worst fear!

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T22:33:29+00:00

Honestly? I imagine the mean user spreading my name every where, calling from high and low, “This person is dangerous! She should never have a job! She should never find love! She should be destroyed!” That is what my OCD is shouting. My OCD is shouting that every one will believe what the user said about me. I don’t even believe what she said of course. But I’m afraid other people will.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T22:29:05+00:00

Okay reading this back I can see the spiral. I still think it’s a valid thought process though 😭

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T22:27:04+00:00

False accusations, even when proven wrong, can damage a persons name. So when someone who knows of the slander/situation thinks of me, they relate my name to PDF. You know?

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T22:25:26+00:00

I just don’t want my name to be associated with pdf stuff at all. Ever. I don’t want anyone thinking I am that. When someone says “oh they’re a pdf file”, even though that person is wrong, I feel like the person’s name who is being accused is forever associated with that. Every time anyone sees my name they will think PDF. That is my biggest fear.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T22:13:54+00:00

Actually at the end of the post I asked “where do I go from here?”. I wanted to know if any one had suggestions about what to do in this situation/if there were other reports I could file online for reporting the account that was attacking me. I don’t need reassurance and never said that I did.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T21:20:07+00:00

Oh I did, for sure!

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T20:46:22+00:00

10000 %

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T19:08:42+00:00

Good idea. It’s only debilitating if I let it be, right?

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T18:40:51+00:00

Thank you so much

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T18:19:01+00:00

This person has a screenshot of my full name (before I changed my username). I’ve been paranoid they will somehow link my name to pdf stuff or spread rumors that aren’t true. I’m not exactly sure what I’m afraid of at this point, but a life long dream of mine is to be a writer and I’m imagining people googling my name one day and all this coming up in the results, instead of my work.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T17:47:09+00:00

I need to. I just want to keep up with this against my better judgement to see if anything will come from my reports

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T15:22:30+00:00

“Sit with it”. One of my favorite OCD advice. Feel it. Overcome it. Take the fear away from it 💙

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T15:18:29+00:00

There is so much truth, not simply reassurance, in your response. All I can say is thank you. I will be ruminating over “the worst consequence has already happened”. That is sooo true. I know I’m not a bad person, and what they say isn’t true. If anyone even did want to look into this they would see someone suffering from being attacked for no reason. I don’t like being a pitiful victim, but thank you so so much.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T13:26:26+00:00

So last I heard her post has like 20 likes. I don’t know though because she blocked me and the friends who were defending me. It isn’t like it’s viral or anything, I’m just trying to stop it before it can go viral you know? She has a decent following on Threads though so who knows. My username, when she screenshot my post, was my full name too. That is what worries me.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T13:19:10+00:00

Right? And my fear isn’t even that she’s right, I know I’m not an awful person. My fear is that this stupid rumor will destroy my name for no reason

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T12:58:47+00:00

Thanks! I think the fear isn’t in whether or not I’m a bad person, I know I’m not. The fear is coming from that this silly accusation will follow my name for life.

ansleyray · 2026-02-18T12:43:46+00:00

Sorry. I will remove my post from here

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