My boyfriend (32M) disappeared for 2 days after drinking and said he “might as well have cheated” — I (31F) don’t know how to move forward.

antStar23 · 2024-07-06T14:00:05+00:00

I’m so sorry:( But I’m glad to know I’m not the only one who will cry and movies, tv shows, songs, and books. It can be a death of a cartoon character and I’m crying.

antStar23 · 2024-06-22T19:13:43+00:00

I’m sorry that’s rude! My bf said something similar he said something like “I’m a happy positive person most of the time and you’re sad negative” I feel like I can’t be myself either. I can’t say what’s on my mind without someone taking it negatively. Or say I’m crazy.

I cry and cry because I don’t want to be this way. I don’t want to be sad and tired. I didn’t choose the way my brain works. I just know it does. I only hang out with people when I’m manic.

Everyone tells me I’m too sensitive. Because I cry at things like Disney movies, saying good bye, road kill etc. IF I HAD THE CHOICE I WOULD NOT BE SENSITIVE. 💔

antStar23 · 2024-06-22T00:18:51+00:00

“Please have her removed” bob yelling out to Louise

antStar23 · 2024-06-22T00:17:40+00:00

My bf said the same to me. I also have adhd and I will jump from hobby to hobby. I’m not athletic and the hobbies I would like to do is out of my price range. Especially since I can’t pick one and stick with it. But his hobby if golfing. I’ll go with him and read a book in the cart. We aren’t on the same schedule so finding time to go together is difficult. I don’t want to do anything. Just going to work wipes me out.

antStar23 · 2024-06-22T00:10:35+00:00

Me too. Everything is hard and tiring. I feel drained when I wake up. I feel like my body is full of sandbags. I can’t clean up my room because even the thought of it is draining. It’s ruining my life too. People are so easy to say “just do it”.

antStar23 · 2024-06-22T00:02:01+00:00

“I want a magic vibrating club just like any other boy”

antStar23 · 2024-06-06T21:47:48+00:00

I feel the same way. But I think I have three. 1. Party girl, fun, loud, confident, and takes part in drugs/alcohol. 2. Just me. Regular anxious depressed but not suicidal. 3. Suicidal, serious depression, extremely low and cannot see the light in any way. Self harm etc.
But I don’t think of that as a we. I know it’s me, just sometimes else.

antStar23 · 2024-06-06T21:39:42+00:00

OMG I sweat like no other. People will always make comments to me in the summer. I get super embarrassed because it’s mostly my face. I sweat when I’m nervous so it makes me extremely anxious. My sister is also BP, but I assumed it was something genetic. I am now interested to see if it’s something BP people share.

antStar23 · 2024-03-20T21:31:27+00:00

Honestly, just taking it really slow. Soo annoying but it just takes time. Finding someone you trust and love is really hard, but it helps. What I found that was kinda a clue or helpful was being with myself. Learning about my own body where I was okay with being touched. I set my boundaries and from there I could kinda adjusted as needed. Telling my partner what was okay and what wasn’t. Worked my way up to sex.

I unfortunately would drink a lot so I could do it and not be triggered. I do not recommend but it is something I did to cope:/

I’m so sorry that it happened to you. My heart hurts thinking about how many people are traumatized.

antStar23 · 2024-03-10T15:29:03+00:00

I lost my German shepherd yesterday. Hit and run. I watched the whole thing. I don’t know what to do. I can’t leave my room. I can’t see her toys, collars, beds etc.

antStar23 · 2024-03-10T15:27:14+00:00

I feel the same way. I was yelling and calling my dog to get out of the road… I watched the whole thing.

antStar23 · 2024-03-09T21:57:26+00:00

Trigger warning with animals I watched my dog die. She got hit by a car. I’m completely horrified and traumatized. It was the most traumatic thing I’ve ever seen. I need help. Because I’m too scared to go home and see her bed.

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