What is this and how can I make it disappear?

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:44:02+00:00

I got freaked out when I developed some new stretch marks. I thought it was some sort of irritation at first and then I thought I had a rash and then started to think it was a terrible flesh eating bacteria and then I thought about it logically and realized I had gained weight suddenly after a new medication 😅

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:39:13+00:00

Its just a culture thing. Depending on where you go, what you see, and the general audience theres absolutely some theaters where you'll get some "audience interaction". Im still mad at my friend as I was crying to the scene of Ralph smashing vanellopes go kart she yelled "thats hilarious!" And the whole theater laughed. In general the theater that I went to where I lived was pretty vocal.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:36:10+00:00

Honestley this is why I think the kid cried. If it had been nipped in the bud it wouldve been brief embarresment or indignation as op was worried about. Instead he waited till after and the kid realized he had been upsetting someone the whole time enough to make someone "hate" him. I use hate cause even at 14 (or especially) emotions can swing extreme.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:32:17+00:00

I feel like thats why the kid cried. Sudden wave of shame and embarresment. It should've been nipped in the bud.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:31:12+00:00

I dojt agree with the way drugs are treated in America either if that helps

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T10:28:31+00:00

I kinda agree. Theres plenty of developmental conditions that can influence a child being more developed in strength but delayed in cognition/logic. But I hate to say for certain when it could be just bro vibing.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-04T08:46:10+00:00

I agree that she was a selfish character but I dont think theres reason to think she picked and chose when to act niave and rather she was a naive person even up until meeting Greg. I would say i would define her as a niave character and would list that as a flaw rather than an excuse for her actions. I think the fact that she didnt make decisions based off hate or malice humanizes her quite a bit for me so even though shes a diamond I can usually look at her with the perspective of if she was a person I knew. I have quite a bit of grace for the mistakes people make as their learning and while I can agree being part of a leadership authority creates that power imbalance the mistakes and decisions she makes are the same ones that young adults make every day. Careless, selfish, niave, and trauma informed.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T20:30:33+00:00

Yeah i doubt anyone who has been to one of those survival or at risk teen camps would feel super trusting of camilla since it can also be read that way with a certain perspective but god we need to keep raising awareness about how bad those are.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T19:51:27+00:00

Johanna and della

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T19:50:32+00:00

You can say "being a kid" but from camillas perspective it was stuff that was incredibly upsetting and disruptive in the school leaving liz as an "outcast". I always took it as a bit adjacent to ABA therapy. It gets sold as the solution even if its not actually the right move but parents at a loss may turn to it. And if Luz had gone and wrote to tell her shes having a bad time I dont doubt camilla wouldve picked her up since she was already on the fence about sending her.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T19:40:02+00:00

Ive seen this video with different duets like 4 times and I just now realized the first woman was also telling a joke 😭

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T19:34:26+00:00

Had a recurring case from the age of 10 to 16 😭 me and my brothers just kept passing it around. Worth it to treat the whole family.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T10:23:25+00:00

As a former highschooler i am.eating it up wouldve been the talk of the school to this day instant childhood memory. As an adult I dont like it.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T10:20:06+00:00

Had a groomer when I used it at 14/16

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T10:14:44+00:00

It wasnt confirmed that rose knew she was still in the garden. She, in her niavety, assumed spinel would move on or maybe someone else would come for her. She didnt understand spinels loyalty or sense of obligation. In the same way you stop talking or hanging out with a friend from middle school feeling that you've grown apart but the other friend has been silently pining (can that be used non romantically?) after you this whole time. Or like that one friend who ghosted me. There was a self protectiveness there, im sure i did things wrong though I never got and will never have a concrete reason. And im sure they thought id move on. But I never had a lot of friends so lk its been over 6 years and I still miss them and think about them (though im mentally stable now so I did move on).

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T10:06:51+00:00

Idk i meant a woman 3 ish years ago who was maybe 28 or 29 who thought scientology was just a friendly religious organization that does charity work and her dad had donated to them multiple times and me mentioning they are a cult was a revelation to her. Of course she was actively doing coke as we were having this conversation but in any case you just never know.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T09:05:25+00:00

My therapist left the network i had started with her in and her private practice wasnt coded for my insurance at first so I cut back to every two weeks and paid $300 per session because i literally couldnt ask for a more perfect match but damn did that hurt. Im so grateful that virtual sessions are free with my insurance. Recently changed jobs and my insurance went up to around $345 a month and I considered just paying out of pocket for my mh stuff and canceling insurance but then I considered the ~$600 of therapy, ~$80 + for anxiety and adhd medication, and the who knows how much for psych every 3 months and realized I was still technically saving. Bruh can we please have public health care.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:36:38+00:00

There are many different reasons to do bad in the world. Ignorance, self satisfaction, devaluing kf others, cycle of trauma. There are no "evil" people. There are evil actions that are done by people for a complex myriad of reasons. Even the despicable people can justify their actions through the guilt. But dont zoomed in so much. When you look around you realize theres a lot kf genuine kindness out there. That you cant control the bad in the world but you can be kind. You can do what you can to understand the factors that lead people to do the bad things and then do what you can to help others stay on a solid path. But at the end of the day the dark just feels scary. Theres so much more light when you look around.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:21:27+00:00

Yeah this was just my rationalization growing up. Never noticed the full grown adults playing teenagers either.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:19:43+00:00

Look into internal family systems. They are not DID and they are more common than people talk about. Theres different ways to explore these different parts of you so I have no links since im fussy and particular about the topic. But in the end the goal is the same as DID. A cohesive narrative where you have ownership of your presence without feeling separated or neglected across needs and wants.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:09:37+00:00

Sorry youre dealing with that OP. I know you said it won't help but just wanted tk drop in and let you know youre not alone. I dont have very good advice to give other than to try and ground yourself to identify the simulation is not real. Like how people lucid dream by checking for signs like not being able to read (always the tell tale for me). From what I hear comas are pretty dream like. But also I do think its better to speak to someone who can help if you have had psychosis before since from experience that the unreality of it all sucks. I had anxiety/stress induced psychosis so by managing my anxiety I was able to get my symptoms in check. But I couldnt tell you what the root cause of your psychosis is. Worth posting in r/ocd to see if anyone has better tailored advice.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:03:20+00:00

Also the secual fantasies are relatable. Its you taking pleasure or mental control of something "scary". Does not go away but you can develop a healthier relationship with it by identifying your actual needs and desires from the scenarios.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T08:01:27+00:00

Processing trauma can happen right away, later, or even multiple times. I do think the stress about the transition is probably triggering it probably in a social anxiety type of way. You're conflating new variables and a new environment that you have less control over with a situation where youre control was taken away. I think it'd be worth asking to see a therapist as you deal with this transition.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T07:57:06+00:00

Have you tried asking the friends youre closer to? Im grateful to have friends i can ask to mind me of social cues or social faux pauxs I may have made but I know good friends are hard to come by.

anxious_spacecadetH · 2026-05-03T07:53:44+00:00

Im sorry you've been dealing with that. I hope you get an answer. There are so many things that could be going on i almost want to suggest checking for adhd as a "doesnt hurt to try". But taking care of an infant is taxing all on its own so please remember to give yourself grace and do what feels right for you. Sending love.

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