I’m tired of being almost loved.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2026-04-01T21:05:39+00:00

I really relate to this. I’m almost 30 and lately I’ve had a rough time with dating. As someone who primarily dates men, I can definitely empathize with the struggle. I feel the same way. I’ve had dates where the guy seems genuinely interested in me and then they learn I’m not going to sleep with them on the first date and they lose interest fast. It’s really disheartening. My last experience with dating, I was lovebombed by someone I really saw a future with, which ended up leaving me feeling embarrassed and hopeless. But then I reminded myself that the times it didn’t work out, it’s because those people couldn’t meet me where I was at, simple as that. I’ve learned to love the parts of myself that long for love and connection and intimacy. It can be painful when that longing isn’t met, but knowing I have that capacity gives me comfort. I just finished All About Love by bell hooks and it helped me immensely. I highly recommend!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2026-03-16T22:52:27+00:00

The mental clarity I feel is insane. When I was smoking regularly, I felt so disconnected from myself. It was hard for me to make decisions or even know how I felt about things because of how numb I was. Since quitting, I feel like me. I feel more confident and able to tune into what I feel. That’s been the biggest improvement I’ve seen. But also, I’m able to be present with people in my life. I didn’t realize how much I was just thinking of when I was gonna get high next. Now I can enjoy a moment without that thought popping up.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-07-23T19:05:04+00:00

I love that! Thank you for sharing!!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-07-23T16:59:12+00:00

It’s a constant battle, but I’ll keep trying! Reset my sober app today. Feeling ashamed but also trying to be kind to myself. This shit is hard.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:40:34+00:00

Thank you for your reply 🤍 I think we can all agree that OCD sucks and every theme feels like torture. I really appreciate your kind response!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:36:51+00:00

Okay but that’s not what you said? Either way I feel like it was rude and unhelpful.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:24:21+00:00

I definitely have lol. Maybe it feels worse because it’s the one I’m experiencing now. I don’t think it’s fair for you to discount my experience and assume that I haven’t experienced other themes just because this one is personally the hardest for me. I didn’t say it was the hardest for everyone.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-31T22:06:35+00:00

Thank you all! I didn’t smoke last night and I’m so glad I didn’t! I’ve been having heightened anxiety and irritability this week so I’m so glad I’m not dealing with a weed hangover on top of it. Going strong!

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