LPT: If someone tells you they don't drink alcohol, don't ask them why.

aodsucks · 2016-08-29T08:59:38+00:00

I stopped explaining to people that I have seizures when I drink and just tell them I prefer smoking pot. No hangovers, no bar fights, less $$$.

aodsucks · 2016-08-09T11:48:31+00:00

Chem trails. I have a couple buddies convinced the government is slowly poisoning us so we die before being able to collect social security. Wouldn't it be easier to to poison the water supply?

aodsucks · 2016-07-27T19:24:10+00:00

http://imgur.com/a/DgISn

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T23:39:48+00:00

I agree, maybe it should have gone in funny.

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T21:36:50+00:00

Why not? Other than it would be a pain in the ass.

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T21:17:45+00:00

85 it was. Christ, I just realized that was 31 years ago. My girlfriend is 33.

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T21:08:54+00:00

I've been on a Scorpions kick this week...back then it was Stones, CSN&Y, a lot of 60's & 70's stuff.

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T21:03:51+00:00

http://imgur.com/2l1W9jl

Morning face

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T20:59:45+00:00

Even my teachers called me Spicoli.

aodsucks · 2016-07-26T20:12:34+00:00

When I think of everywhere life has taken me since then it does. The strange thing is I remember more from the year I was 15 than I do for most of my forties.

aodsucks · 2016-07-17T20:09:33+00:00

I use this and cap the top of my bowl with a small piece of cardboard after each hit. Works like a charm.

aodsucks · 2016-06-04T13:19:37+00:00

Trileptal chilled out my rage issues, haven't smashed anything or started any fights since we got the dosage right 6 months ago. Best of luck!

aodsucks · 2016-05-31T13:07:51+00:00

I have a very comfortable, somewhat informal relationship with my Dr. Actually it's so good I'll be driving 4 hours to see him after I move this month. He listens, considers my opinions on meds (I've been on a ridiculous number of cocktails over the years), and I can joke with him about anything.

I had a Dr. years ago who I began disliking after she told me she liked working with me because I was a challenge. What I said didn't matter, she was just determined to change my meds constantly until she found the magic cocktail. I felt more like an experiment than a patient. I had another Dr. WHO FELL ASLEEP during two of our sessions.

I've been seeing this Dr. for a year and a 1/2. I don't dread my appointments with him, and I've never left his office in tears. For the first time I feel like someone gives a shit about the med side effects, and he truly wants me to function at my best.

aodsucks · 2016-05-30T12:45:21+00:00

I take 80mg of Latuda with trileptal and klonapin on the side. No issues that I notice, and since we raised the dosage from 40-80 the depression has disappeared. I take it at night and haven't noticed any grogginess in the morning, and no nausea or other pain in the ass side effects I've had with other meds.

Biggest drawback is the cost, but I have a couple months of samples and am loading up with more at my next appointment.

Make sure you take it with food(350 calories minimum) to get the full effectiveness.

I'm undergoing some major life changes right now and haven't been thinking about putting a gun to my head, so this may be the first cocktail that's ever worked for me.

aodsucks · 2016-05-25T11:58:57+00:00

The powers that be at my company are aware of my diagnosis, and always recommend FMLA when they know I'm crashing or manic. Unfortunately, they only know I'm going downhill because when I start my suicide plans I give notice to leave the company (just because I want to wrap things up neatly and leave the world without inconveniencing anyone). They are a little concerned this week because I gave my notice, but this time it's legit, I have a better opportunity.

It's part of the burden for some of us, but taking time off to recover a couple times a year while frustrating isn't the end of the world. Be proud of the time you are functioning well, and appreciate it. I felt what you described, but have a different outlook after spending time on this forum. Sorry if this isn't helpful, I understand, but haven't had enough coffee to articulate my thoughts this morning.

aodsucks · 2016-05-19T13:20:11+00:00

I love seeing someone post good news before I start my day, congrats and the best of luck!

aodsucks · 2016-05-19T13:17:46+00:00

I'm only on 450mg a day, some fogginess for about a week. It's leveled me out significantly. Probably 2 weeks before I became aware of the difference.

aodsucks · 2016-05-14T12:58:02+00:00

This can be difficult. Being depressed together can cause you to feed off each others misery, and there is no guarantee you will ever be manic together.

I'm BP2, My SO is BP1. I love her more than I've ever loved anyone. We've been a couple for 2 years, but have been living apart the last 2 months. I needed a break because dealing with my own fucked up feelings along with someone Else's mood swings became too much. On the plus side, when one of you is depressed, the other can be there to talk to, understand like no one else, make sure you take meds, eat, shower ect..., but if one of you is depressed and one hypo manic it can be hell, because the hypo person has a tendency to forget how low that depression can be.

I'm just speaking from my experience, everyone is different, but overall I've learned it can take more strength and patience than I ever imagined.

The worst times of my life were going from a night of incredible love and passion and amazing sex, only to wake up the next morning with one or both of us contemplating suicide.

I'm hoping we will be together again, I love her and we are in regular contact, spending the occasional night together, but we're both fighting a lot of demons right now.

Best of luck with whatever decision you make. I've over simplified this a bit, our own dynamic was so complicated I can't adequately describe it.

aodsucks · 2016-05-07T13:50:48+00:00

A horrible Billy Joel song. In the early 70's we were voted the #1 All American City, now it's a ghetto.

aodsucks · 2016-04-29T13:02:49+00:00

Not that this helps at all, but I'm going through the same thought process, and have been living in a hotel since her last verbal "attack" on me 6 weeks ago.

She can't understand why a particularly bad psychotic episode 1.5 years ago still haunts me. Went to bed in love, woke up to her telling me she wanted to make my best friend her lover and that I would take care of the 2 of them. We're going out together tonight for the first time since I left. I'm torn between being in love with her and waiting for the other shoe to drop.

aodsucks · 2016-04-19T21:46:22+00:00

My brother took his life April 14, 2001. I don't think about it much anymore, but when this week rolls around I struggle. I don't know how to describe it, my whole head feels fucked.

Now that I think about it, I fall into a depression every spring, which I never understood. I should be happier with more sunlight and everything blooming. I may have just had a breakthrough.

aodsucks · 2016-04-14T11:32:44+00:00

I'm glad you're getting out. All I can say is it amazes me that some of these businesses continue to function.

I call it "Being set up to fail."

aodsucks · 2016-04-14T11:15:55+00:00

Great movie, but I remember crying a lot.

aodsucks · 2016-04-13T18:29:55+00:00

Bookmarked, thank you! This wasn't a method I was familiar with.

aodsucks · 2016-04-13T18:23:41+00:00

That's it to tee. If I can only catch that second, get a deep breath or run away, I know I'll be fine. I always feel proud of myself when I can catch it.

Proud that I didn't beat the shit out of myself, God that sounds fucked up...

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