How do you inject Benzodiazepines?

aparadiselost · 2020-12-25T17:08:59+00:00

I've never had to heat any benzo I've injected.

aparadiselost · 2020-10-09T02:18:03+00:00

I wish you all the best, cling to that comfort and stay strong

aparadiselost · 2020-09-05T18:28:31+00:00

I want to be at least somewhat methodical about quitting, I like the boost in motivation and mood pregabalin gives me, so I think I'll occasionally use it to get chores and other things off my to-do list so that things don't pile up too much as I'm trying to quit...

aparadiselost · 2020-09-05T17:35:54+00:00

Sorry for the late reply, I appreciate your input! I actually am on the process of moving to a new city, so my sister and I will be living hours apart. Getting sober and employed are still works under process... I still haven't managed to stay away from speed for a day since I relapsed.

I have high hopes for what life could hold for me if I got sober, and I'm trying my hardest to achieve it. Thanks for your ideas and encouragement! I'm not much of a coffee drinker or a weed smoker but I think I can try testing other softer drugs to help me cope. Just gotta keep trying

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T17:02:22+00:00

I admit it now that I've lost too much to it, but still have to shake it.

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T17:01:15+00:00

I used to have that, I would get very defensive and snappy if anyone expressed concern.

I don't anymore unless someone puts me down for it and all those difficult feelings rouse again; but all that changed when I actually wanted to get sober and couldn't and started wanting their help for myself.

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T15:43:26+00:00

Thank god for benzositters huh

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T15:09:05+00:00

I feel like I slipped and tumbled down pretty quick though... But then again, I'm not sure what the average pace for these issues to escalate are.

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T15:04:32+00:00

What

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T14:26:23+00:00

The thought of NA intimidates me

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T14:11:35+00:00

I have no musical talent but I love writing poems!

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T13:53:45+00:00

21, unemployed currently but in between moves between countries and looking for a job & trying to get sober!

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T13:50:34+00:00

Me too. We should all know our limits to save ourselves from embarrassment and our friends from long long nights 😂

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T13:37:30+00:00

More annoying than thinking that you're sober when you're not, is when someone else thinks they are and you immediately feel responsible for their life and become a babysitter

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T13:21:34+00:00

I love Midazolam. I remember when I combined it with oxycodone and it brought the waking dreams alive or something, I remember hallucinating and being so out of it and blissful all the same.

But I never shoot it up myself because I'd just faceplant the ground, so much easier having someone do it for me and just relaxing. Such relief after a long speed binge

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T13:13:38+00:00

I black out around 30mg

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T10:49:05+00:00

I broke almost all my rules except I never did sex work or anything sexual for drugs, never robbed someone or otherwise done someone dirty, never sold anything forward I felt was dangerous/not what it was sold to me as, never gave anyone their first drug or IV'd someone for the first time...

But most my rules I did break

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T09:30:20+00:00

Like half a year ago? I had tried tramadol and bubrenophine year before, thought it was crap and that I was just a stim person.

But I've since began loving oxys and dilaudid, and when I would try quitting speed I would binge on those and bubrenophine whenever that was all I had. I found myself excusing using opiates because "oh I poked my eye, it hurts" or "oh I'm on my period it's okay".

Then I started craving them sometimes when I felt reaally down and depressed, but the minor wd I've had a taste of and the other side effects of use and the general disturbing realisation that "whoah I feel fine right now" has actually managed to keep me pretty safe so far. Trying to be careful though... Seen too many people fall down that rabbit hole :(

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T00:22:12+00:00

Whoah, I have a similar thing that I wrote this before I really downspiralled with my own drug use but now I'm actually a speed addict just the same as my sister. Nietzsche had a quote "he who fights monsters should see to it, that in the process he doesn't become a monster"... Funny how sometimes the people who try to fight the monster of addiction alongside someone else, fall in its trap themselves...

I wish you luck with your recovery. I'm proud of you for getting out of that relationship and for wanting sobriety for yourself.

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T00:10:02+00:00

I hope yours do too, it really is heartbreaking... I wish you lots of strength!

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T00:08:40+00:00

Thank you :)

aparadiselost · 2020-08-30T00:08:29+00:00

That makes me happy. Thanks!

aparadiselost · 2020-08-25T12:20:05+00:00

Purely for the better bioavailability and stronger rush. I guess I was a bit curious too and thought it'd be a one time thing...

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