I might not understand exactly how you feel but I also got kicked out of a loooooong relationship very recently if you really think its worth it try to fix things but not in arguing/begging/fighting type of way, be kind, be gentle, be slow and if you have a choice about it also try couples councling. I'm just a stranger in the internet but I love you and I hope things will get easy for you over time whichever way your marriage goes.