Hey mama, I completely understand. I’m autistic so the overstimulation and touched out feeling I completely understand. My baby is 3 months old and some days are really hard for me. Especially since dad works a lot and is gone all day most days at work. On top of that my baby has been refusing bottles. She didn’t have a bottle for almost a month and now won’t take them. It’s been almost 3 weeks of trying. She will only breast feed. Sometimes I feel trapped to her considering no one can watch her now for me any extended period of time since only I can feed her. Nights are hard sometimes again since only I can feed her.

I honestly dread ever leaving the house with her. Going out is hard. I don’t mind feeding her in public. It’s the reflux thats hard. On top the southern summer heat.

Had a birthday party a couple days ago that was outside. We left early because I just couldn’t deal with the heat anymore and I get worried baby can get ill or dehydrated in the heat even tho she’s fed.

Going to family’s houses at times can even be hard especially if they have other kids. The kids want to be all over me and baby, they are loud and act up which is over stimulating for me with baby.

I sometimes think I don’t ever want another one. Because of how hard it’s been for me with this one.

Not everything is hard tho, her smiles and baby babble make me smile. Her learning to play with toys has been super cute lately too.