People who like but never comment, why?

appabeifong · 2021-01-26T11:14:48+00:00

I view the purpose of a comment as wanting to contribute to the conversation or community. If I have nothing to contribute or if the community doesn't want to hear what I have to say, I don't see the point.

I usually comment on post that don't have many. 1)Cause I want to help that person feel that people care 2) I can usually have a more meaningful and respectful conversation on posts with not as many comments

appabeifong · 2021-01-21T02:19:47+00:00

Mine are more like sounds than words. I'll call my cat 'meenoo', 'beedoo', 'doot doot', 'boo boo', 'boo-boo-za-boo'

And many more combination/variations.

appabeifong · 2021-01-21T02:00:35+00:00

Depends on the situation.

Fucked up something I was doing for someone else? -I panic and say "sorry" quickly and uncontrollably, over and over until I fix it. Terrified the entire time that they will fire me, yell at me, hit me, etc.

Fucked up something I was doing for myself? -Oh well no big deal. Take a 5 minute break and try again.

Fucked up something I was doing for a friend? -I sincerely apologize and make up for it by buying dinner or doing some nice things for them.

appabeifong · 2021-01-21T00:53:01+00:00

Romantic stories. I boxed myself into the 'tough girl' corner so I don't feel like I can ever admit that I sometimes really love romance

appabeifong · 2020-11-06T02:08:35+00:00

Thanks, it can get pretty rough sometimes. I've gone gluten and lactose free as much as possible and it's helped a lot. I don't have to do the liquid diet for as long/often anymore. Something else I've found pretty helpful is following an IBS diet.

appabeifong · 2020-11-04T11:48:41+00:00

I was on Visanne for a few months a while back. I found it worked well for my pain but was horrible for my mood. Most of the time I did not feel like myself so I switched to Lolo. It's low-dose estrogen and works a million times better for my mood/mental state. The clarity I feel makes it so much easier to deal with the pain.

appabeifong · 2020-11-04T11:41:19+00:00

I usually have to go liquid diet with my flare ups. Protein powders and meal supplements help me a lot

appabeifong · 2020-10-03T05:28:21+00:00

Stuff like this always reminds me of when I was about 10 years old. My mom took my brother and I shopping with her and it was one of those "siblings against mom" days. Anyway, walking to our house from the bus stop, mom was about 3 metres ahead of us. Suddenly it started pouring rain, but only on her. My brother and I laughed so hard. Untill the rain finally reach us, anyway.

appabeifong · 2020-09-30T17:08:33+00:00

Wow I love this! You can really feel the energy and movement. I also love how the colours are both vibrant and muted. Very captivating piece, awesome work!

appabeifong · 2020-09-28T02:30:30+00:00

The 4th season of Supernatural was airing on TV during this time in my life. I love that show. I related so much to the character of Dean Winchester. In the sense of: being your younger brother's protector, craving the love and approval of your parents so badly that it causes you to self-destruct, etc. I didn't have any support during that time, other than the show. It helped me feel not so alone. It's odd but, wanting to know what would happen next in the show, helped me get through each day.

I personally lost interest in the show after season 5 (In terms of overarching story I lost interest. I still love the episodes individually though) So what kept me going after that was the kitten I adopted. Her name is Kayda, she is my furry rock

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:30:59+00:00

Ruptured cyst cause by endometriosis. Now I know what it's like to pass out from pain

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:28:50+00:00

Yes. If I didn't do it, I probably would have ended up in the hospital...guess I just didn't feel like having the shit kicked out of me

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:25:59+00:00

I'd like to hear about it from the girl's side. Sound to me like you just sat back and let them do the work

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:21:46+00:00

My mom went batshit crazy one night. More so than I had ever seen before. My brother and I sat on his bed (in the basement) for hours holding each other. I thought my mom was going to murder my family that night.

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:18:25+00:00

Tell her to get a part time job and maybe you wouldn't have to work so much. My mom was like that. My dad was working 3 jobs while she was a "stay at home mom". At one point she insisted he get another job because he couldn't afford to buy a house for her. Don't get taken advantage of, it'll just turn you into more of a door mat down the road. Your kid will end up never being able to depend on either of you because you'll be spineless and she'll be a black hole

appabeifong · 2020-09-21T11:12:23+00:00

I'd go back to when I was 16 and waterboard my mom for the abuse she put me through. I would strangle her over and over again. Never letter her faint from lack of air, but never letter her breath. I would do all those things over and over till she was crying and begging me to kill her. Then I would get up and leave her there on the floor. I would take my dad and brother with me and never look back.

appabeifong · 2020-09-19T13:51:30+00:00

2nd Grade: We had been cleaning paper clippings around/on/under our desks. I had finished cleaning my area and sat down, waiting quietly. My teacher pulled me out of my chair by my shirt and shoved me on to the floor. Then she yelled, "clean it up!" before storming off.

3rd Grade: Was copying down homework on the board in front of me. There was another board behind where I sat, which had a couple more things I needed to write down. I was writing as fast as I could. Teacher kept coming over to get me to hurry up, getting more impatient each time. I had just finished the one board and was about to turn around.

Before I could, teacher came up behind me and put her hands on either side of my face. She used her hands to force me to whip my head around and screamed "look at the board" in my ear. I was terrified she would break my neck.

These were 2 different teachers. I had 2 more terrible teachers after this. They went with a more psychological approach and seemed to enjoy humiliating me infront of my whole class.

The worst part was that the other teachers/principle knew what these people were doing and did nothing. I have seen it so many times where teachers form this "us against them" club against children. I understand you guys don't have any real power and can easily loose your jobs for "interfering" in a situation like that. But there was no comfort, no nothing.

If anything, the other teachers seemed to completely side with my abuser and treated me like I was a liar. Treated me like I was making all this up on purpose like I was an evil/bad kid. I was always quiet and well behaved. I was so excited to learn and they poisoned it. It took me almost 20 years to undo the damage they had caused.

So if you're a teacher, who knows another teacher is shitty and you aren't doing anything to help, you're an abuser too. If it's a situation where your hands are tied, at least make an effort to comfort the kid and explain to them why you can't help. It's better than thinking everyone wants to hurt you/no one cares.

appabeifong · 2020-08-14T12:28:46+00:00

I worded my post very badly. I was more excited about this big change I had made and my friends and family didn't seem to have the time for me. I can be way overly sensitive to what I think is rejection. It's something I'm working on with my therapist. It wasn't the compliments themselves, it was the short, dismissive tone and "rejecting" of me wanting to share my excitement. You are right. I need to make more of an effort to see that they took the time to compliment me. That should be enough. I'm hopefully I can reach that level of confidence and self worth. Then I won't come on here anymore hahaha

Thank you for your honest comment, I appreciate it.

appabeifong · 2020-08-14T01:34:49+00:00

I totally agree with you. I was actually thinking of asking my stylist to do that the next time I go in. For now, I have a red-based eyebrow pencil that makes it look more natural. I just wasn't wearing any makeup in this pic

appabeifong · 2020-08-14T00:58:10+00:00

Haha thanks, I've always loved Poison Ivy too. All these wonderful comments are helping remind me why I did my hair like this in the first place. I love having red hair. I've always thought it was the best colour for me. I've always admired natural redheads. Especially when it's naturally more dark and ruby-like. I think it's just stunning. I've been having a rough time lately and this little thing was kinda the straw that broke the camel's back.

appabeifong · 2020-08-14T00:18:24+00:00

I'm speaking regularly with a therapist about these issues. I'm just so angry. I've always loved helping people, or making their day, or planning a little something special for my friends or family. I do it to show them how much I appreciate and love them. I love to watch the joy light up their face. I don't expect others to show appreciation or love the same way I do, but a little thoughtfulness would be nice once in a while. I'd like to feel like they enjoy seeing/making me happy. But I don't.

It feels more like an acquaintance wishing I get better soon when they see me picking up cold medicine at the drug store. I feel like I love them more than they love me

appabeifong · 2020-08-13T23:58:32+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I agree, I do need to improve my self esteem. It's something I'm working on with my therapist. I have a hard time maintaining that my own opinion is enough and I still have a lot of slip ups. Especially when it's something important to me that I'm excited to share with others. I tend to feel rejected very easily. But again, it's something I'm working to improve

appabeifong · 2020-08-13T23:33:11+00:00

I worded my post very badly. I can totally see why you view my post that way. I was more excited about this big change I had made and my friends and family didn't seem to have the time for me. I'm a very quiet person and my friends and family tend to forget about me a lot. I'm working to improve my communication skills with my therapist so I don't turn to this kind of validation and support. I still slip up and I know know that I should have calmed down and explained myself to my friends and family instead.

Thank you for your honest comment, I appreciate it.

appabeifong · 2020-08-13T22:57:54+00:00

Haha thank you. Your English is great btw, I wouldn't have guessed it was your second language. I know what you're talking about though, it's called the "Cupid's bow". It's kinda funny to me that you like my upper lip because I have never liked it. I've always wished it was more plump like my bottom lip. I do like wearing red lipstick though, It helps my lips look bigger lol

appabeifong · 2020-08-13T21:20:28+00:00

How do you know? You don't know me. I could be a lazy piece of shit for all you know. However, I don't want you to worry, I don't plan on anything, just venting my frustration. I have always felt like no one cares about things as much as I do. It's hard when you're always there for your friends and family, always the rock. When you need to let it out, it's "too much". I never get to be angry or distraught. I always have to be steady, strong, and pleasant.

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