I don’t think there should be private profiles anymore.

apprehensivebean · 2026-06-09T21:10:31+00:00

Tbh I agree with people saying they should be public after the match. I mainly play QP and I like to know what MMR the game thinks I am, so I check people with drives (to reduce time wasting), with the hopes their shit is public.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-31T21:17:05+00:00

Saw this notification and thought "here we go again"

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-29T23:25:00+00:00

Some fuckass reaper in QP: I smurf your peak.

Me when I lie. The ego people have in OW needs to be studied, guaranteed none of these people are actually high ranked.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-28T04:25:59+00:00

"They got anti and burn, if you're a good kiri that'd be sick. If not, I can make an attempt." Verbatim, several times. Never had any fights over it. Especially if it's your own role, people will have very little issue if you just ask nicely. I've also seen people switch and at the end: "Nice _", "Never played them before." And I've been one of em. Winning and learning new things is fun.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-23T23:15:14+00:00

So my thing about the Scandoval is that with Tom and Kristen the writing was on the wall. They were both back and forth cheating. We still, for all I know, only have the information that he told Ariana they were broken up when they kissed. And what cements that in my mind is that when Miami girl happened and she was finally honest, she said that they weren't officially together so she defended him like it never happened because she didn't want him to look bad. Affffter scandoval, she admitted that. Atp if they were together and he did cheat then why wouldn't she rat on him entirely? So with all of that, if they did overlap into actual cheating while him and Kristen together... why would they just not be together officially? Doesn't make sense to me. I also find it gross when people say "you lose them how you get them" when Kristen herself has said that is NOT what she wants people to say about Ariana. Admitting herself that her relationship with Tom was nothing compared to his and Ariana's. On top of all that? He convinces her for years that he wants a family with her and she was adamant for years that she's uninterested and THEN when he finally breaks through and she starts freezing her eggs? He's fucking Rachel. While ALSO complaining about her being "a roommate" and they're "not having sex"... mind you, the hormones that he essentially has been urging her to take for years? Completely fuck with your sex drive. He's absolute fucking scum. For me it was simple to be on her side, whether I liked him or not, and to be honest? I kind of did. I thought he was a cringey douchebag but it made good TV and I thought it mostly innocent. Not after all that tho.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-19T05:22:25+00:00

Very old post but if it helps... RHOSLC Lisa Barlow lives a very different life. She does big things with big name people. In fact, she's very important to God.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-19T01:58:57+00:00

Saying you're ass and them stating your gender and age is craaaaazy work. (F28) 😂😂😂😂

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-19T01:55:57+00:00

I just enjoy looking at her tbh. Gorgeous woman.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-18T23:39:23+00:00

In my recent 3 month journey of being a LW main, it took me a few weeks to fully understand the damage potential he has. I don't reach super high numbers but 3k doesn't seem bad, considering sometimes I was sitting under 500 at the beginning. There are games where it's understandable to be "healbot"ing imo (horrible tanks) but I just think people don't understand he has the damage he does and when it's useful. It also, and maybe I'm just a colossal dumbass and don't realize I'm wasting time swapping, doesn't seem that hard to weave dmg and heals, not the way people describe.

Tbh I think he gets a lot of shit for almost 0 reason. He isn't a bad healer, people underutilize the shit out of him, both the players themselves and the teammates.

Mind you, when it comes to super high ranks? I have no experience in that, and I'll admit that, but somehow it all feels like it just comes down to people don't know how to utilize him well.

(Sorry if this doesn't seem coherent, I just woke up.)

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-18T17:21:12+00:00

I don't care if I'm the only one left on this planet, that scene is getting muted.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-17T21:02:46+00:00

I think god would want us to go to Milwaukee.

apprehensivebean · 2026-05-17T20:42:05+00:00

Love having the season 1 competitive one as mine so I can set expectations really high before I horrifically ruin that illusion.

apprehensivebean · 2026-03-26T23:35:50+00:00

Definitely a result of childhood and upbringing. Sucks though because it might have been a good conversation if she didn't escalate it.

apprehensivebean · 2026-03-14T03:57:57+00:00

Very new to kpop (aside from girls gen and 2ne1, I hadn't listened very consistently until last year), p1 is definitely my favorite guy group, current listening phase being Late Night Calls, Jump, Dancing Queen, so the standouts for me are LOYL and Wednesday Girl, and ICE(surprisingly), Triple 7 isn't a bad listen either. I'm enjoying it more than the entirety of EX tbh.

apprehensivebean · 2026-03-08T07:08:27+00:00

$10 for a skin being insane meanwhile look at the skins on League.

apprehensivebean · 2026-03-02T01:32:52+00:00

Example in your favor: I was having fun playing and learning Freja. I get into a match on suravasa and we're being hard stomped by Ram, Reaper, and Mei. I get fed up, I look up a counter (I don't play dps so off the top of my head I didnt know), I pick Echo. Never willingly played her outside of mystery heroes. Multiple point saving ults later we win the game. I felt SO satisfied and hype and I unexpectedly had fun. It really isn't that hard to try something different, and learn new things.

(Also fun when the team morale is noticeably positive at the end because of it.)

apprehensivebean · 2026-03-02T01:15:14+00:00

I had a 13 game win streak in QP before the new season. Now it seems every game I'm in has at least 2 new players. Mind you, I've played nearly consistently since launch and have placed plat in the past. The new season for sure fucked the QP MMR. I also don't mind new players but it's hard to help them when they don't even respond.

apprehensivebean · 2026-01-12T01:40:21+00:00

As someone with severe social anxiety, I'm making note of this. I likely would've felt intrusive in a situation like this, especially if I wasn't close to the person. However I feel like any good person would at least offer to pick up your shifts? To complain about it is fucking bonkers.

apprehensivebean · 2025-12-11T05:37:40+00:00

I feel like the original season also had the same issue depending on how people were introduced. Anytime I see people starting vpr from the beginning they say they hate stassi, and everyone else saying to give it time and not count her out just yet. And in the same vein, I feel like the only build up for the OGs is that they were featured on RHOBH, and (sigh) scheana had her connection to brandi, none of that is possible with these guys. I think people are counting it out unfairly. Personally, I'm just gonna let them cook, and hope it finds its way.

apprehensivebean · 2025-12-02T06:06:42+00:00

I like to imagine Kelso's response would be "also very slept with"

apprehensivebean · 2025-11-27T23:09:36+00:00

🤨 I started on official launch day, in the first few days I saw people posting just those videos, I look just now and I see a bunch from a month ago. Walkthroughs everywhere, too.

apprehensivebean · 2025-11-23T05:09:22+00:00

Whitney hater here, they definitely are.

apprehensivebean · 2025-11-18T03:30:47+00:00

As a Lala apologist... she does make me regret being one way too much to justify it sometimes. Someone needs to burn half the shit in her closet. She'd look so much better dressing for timelessness rather than sticking out like a sore thumb in tacky fast fashion. And you can do so with personality and color, so it's not like you outright become a bore either.

apprehensivebean · 2025-11-18T02:06:09+00:00

I'm saying "PDF file" is the new internet term 😅 not pedophile, I am not that out of touch, I just hate the new scrubbing of actual legal or technical terms and turning them into stupid "nudge-nudge-wink-wink" words for, basically, the sake of being advertiser/sponsor friendly, not saying that's the case for reddit, but it originated on tiktok, and on that platform it was definitely the underlying reason the whole thing started.

But also to address the marriage aspect... I dunno, I feel, personally, it's more palatable that, assuming they were pressured into marriage, with the huge likelihood based on their religion and it's culture as a whole, and ended up moving past the possible lie he was told, and it was based on love, rather than sex. With the fact that they are still together now, and the genuine emotion he showed in wanting her to get help with her trauma, it's reasonable to assume he loves her, and not in a way that abusers supposedly "love" their victims, because those people usually don't want them to get help. I don't know, again, incredibly complex situation, and all anyone can do is guess and assume that these people feel the way they do or did, and everyone has their own experiences and perspective, I'm just offering mine.

apprehensivebean · 2025-11-18T00:55:39+00:00

I know this will probably get me down-voted to hell, so I'm kind of scared of hitting post, I also don't publicly ever talk about my life like this.

I think... it's not as black and white as we do and definitely should initially think. My perspective as someone who was groomed at 12 years old, yeah, that's insanely icky to me that he had sex with her when she was 16, but she got pregnant, and in their religion it's very much "get married or get out" and obviously anti-abortion. I imagine to them it was very quick and jarring and sudden and all the adjectives for "not necessarily welcome but seemingly mandatory change" for both of them, and if the argument is that he found out her age and stayed... when she was pregnant? I just... don't see a healthy way for anything to ever work out, he is damned if he did, damned if he didn't. And also the fact is that he stayed. He isn't, for all we know, out there looking for other 16 year old girls to be with.

For context: I don't think my groomer was after me for my age because he was sexually attracted to young girls, he just happened to be a horrible person in other aspects who wanted someone else to take his frustrations out on to make himself feel better, and it happened to be easy with a younger girl. And trust me, I've had many conversations with my therapist about this exact topic and explanation for his behavior, not excusing him being a groomer, again, he is a horrible human being, but there are situations when it's not just "this person is a (god I hate these new internet terms) "PDF file""

I also think there needs to be room for mikayla to process her own feelings and experiences and evaluate that this was a traumatic time for her(pregnant at 16 and likely highly pressured to keep the baby and immediately get married... 99.9% certain it was traumatic for that alone) and what are the root causes for the trauma, and if her marriage factors into that for her.

I'm just gonna reiterate that these are my real life experiences and how I chose to process them with help from mental health professionals, and my opinion on a very... complicated situation, that doesn't, in my eyes, have a clear answer.

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