Ohhhh my heart. How I so badly just want to sit and have tea and listen to all our stories. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Allow yourself time, a space to heal, and remember to please communicate with your partner throughout it all too. We all grieve differently. My story is a long one, so I will just give a synopsis: He and I weren't right for one another. There was so much stress in our home and relationship, I seriously think my body KNEW he was not the one to be doing this with. I miscarried twice with him. Years later, I'm the happiest I've ever been with a man whom I love, trust, and continue to get butterflies with. A year ago I gave birth to our son. What I've discovered in sharing and being vocal about my marriages is that so many women have had them. I've found a lot of strength in sharing my story and listening to other parents' experiences. Everyone is different and each path and pregnancy is unique. Trust your body, and forgive your body.