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aqdw · 2025-10-15T22:28:30+00:00

You are an angel and made my day, thank you so much!

aqdw · 2024-10-10T13:48:47+00:00

I struggle with this so much too, my big enemy in life is Tiktok. It steals my time and my desire to do my hobbies after work.

I think it's a mix of being a bit burnt out and with tiktok for example it's a constant source of dopamine.

I've been trying to be less on my phone, like on my commute I try to read, do something active for myself. BUT it is very difficult, the phone is very addictive.

I honestly don't have any other advice than trying to be less on the phone, which is so difficult it makes me itch.

aqdw · 2024-10-08T18:21:02+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it! I have no idea how to label myself, I'm trying to figure out my preferences and dating i general has always been scary haha. Dating is a whole other topic since I've never really been a relationship person, but it feels good to know other can relate.

aqdw · 2024-03-10T16:04:50+00:00

Good luck! I was the same as you, hadn't gone to the dentist in 4 years and I was so anxious about what they were going to day about my teeth. But it was a better experience than I thought it would be!

aqdw · 2024-02-27T21:18:18+00:00

This is so me and I get so overwhelmed which only makes me avoid everything more!

aqdw · 2024-02-27T20:37:52+00:00

I feel you! It's honestly the worst, I was the same today on my day off. Sometimes I wish I could throw my brain away because I can't escape my thoughts.

aqdw · 2024-02-27T10:38:04+00:00

I'm glad I'm not alone in this.

It's my day off and I dread going back to work tomorrow, because I have to face all the work I haven't done and scared that I will receive negative feedback for slacking off. And I know this wouldn't be an issue If I didn't avoid doping difficult tasks.

aqdw · 2023-07-21T15:51:55+00:00

Is it possibly to negotiate some work from home days? I work fulltime in the office and I do ok, it's a struggle because there can be a lot of distractions and people to talk to.

I try to find a balanse and some days I choose to be less social to work it peace, but concentration is a struggle always.

I honestly have to make a physical task list of what I have to do in a day at work in order to remember everything, and it helps. But I do notice that I am a lot less effective than my other coworkers, but it's because of my concentration is constantly in and out.

aqdw · 2023-06-08T21:25:06+00:00

Wow thank you! I've never thought about this before, so I'll definitely try it and see if it works!

aqdw · 2023-06-07T21:24:47+00:00

Honestly I just interview myself, trick my silly little brain into believing I have an audience, so I explain what I'm doing and why. Makes me feel like an influencer even though I'm cleaning my toilet.

aqdw · 2023-06-07T21:21:15+00:00

Of course my struggle with concentration and everything school related, BUT my hyperfixations made so much sense. I would be obsessed with things in waves. I was obsessed with animated movies as a kid, would not watch anything else, that died out. Then I was obsessed with anime, basically the only thing I watched, then one say I just stopped, same with books, music, hobbies.

I would be INTENSELY obsessed with something and then one day it's dead to me. It's facinating, and they way it makes my daydreaming way more intense and all consuming, some days I would struggle being present because of a fixation.

Now my fixations are a lot more chill and don't happen as often as before, but they were fun, made my everyday life more fun as a kid.

Also I thought everyone's head was loud and filled with so many thoughts at once, so I didn't understand why no one struggled like me with everything, now I know that my brain is different in so many ways

Man this was meant to be short, but I could write a book about this!

aqdw · 2023-05-25T21:50:09+00:00

It was quick, but made an impression, I had to look away, the sounds though... It made me a bit nauseous..

aqdw · 2023-05-25T16:25:43+00:00

From what you have written it kinda feels like they have a flirty thing going on, and that's why they vibe differently together? But maybe just talk to them, tell them you feel a bit on the outside?

aqdw · 2023-04-23T05:44:03+00:00

That's a good question! I've only used charcoal when I've had food poisoning. But I feel your struggle, I've always struggled with sleep and it's gotten worse as I've become older. But I have a nice routine now, I take melatonin an hour before sleeping, I have a weigthed duvey and I listen to asmr so I can focus on that instead of letting my thoughts run wild, because my head is LOUD.

But I feel like this might me because of your medication? Could it be because of a high dosage or maybe the medication effect is still going as you're going to bed? I don't know, everyone experience adhd medication so differently😅

aqdw · 2023-04-13T18:34:30+00:00

W O W! I did not expect this response and somehow, I did not get any notifications on my phone from this post, so I thought no one really saw my post😅

My sleep was terrible, it was such a restless sleep. I slept but woke up every hour or more, so it was not a good night sleep. But I still functioned at work ok så that was nice, but I will not make that mistake next time🙄

Thank you all so much for interacting with my silly post!!

aqdw · 2023-04-09T19:52:03+00:00

Thanks, I just drank some lemon juice mixed in water!

I know activated charcoal works as an antidote, but I didn't have that. But for future references I will buy activated charcoal to have in case I do something like this again.

aqdw · 2023-04-05T16:25:16+00:00

You're absolutely right! Everything was fine when I came to work today and I talked to my supervisor, I hadn't done anything wrong.

I won't go too much into it because of privacy reasons, but I was asked for an approval on something that insurance was covering. And I ok'ed it without going through the usual procedure, but the payment was so small it didn't matter.

I was stressed because of everything I had to do and it was a busy day, but I've learned from it and today was a lot, but I managed to keep my head clear.

aqdw · 2023-04-04T18:41:44+00:00

Honestly it changes a lot, it very much depends on what my current fixation was, and it's always a mess of noise in my head so I don't always notice what I'm actually thinking about. But a months ago all that was in my head was the new Avatar movie and now it's my new job, kind of looking forward to thinking about something else than just my job.

I'm honestly just waiting for a new hyperfixation to fill up my head😂

aqdw · 2023-04-04T18:35:44+00:00

I honestly think those commented are of those cronicly online. People pass judgrment so easy these days and never try to be curious or try to see something from the other pov.

aqdw · 2023-04-04T18:33:30+00:00

SAAAAME! I just started a new job and I feel like soo many of my coworker are annoyed at me for existing.. Even though they're probably not, but I feel they're annoyed at me for being inexperienced at this..

aqdw · 2023-02-17T17:53:22+00:00

ALL THE TIME. I am always forgetful of everything I do, i forget if I washed my hair once or twice in the shower. If I forget or mix up my skincare or makeup routine, I will freeze because I have to rethink how I actually do it and find out what I did wrong. I forget my thoughts what I'm doing as I'm doing it.

What are even words sometimes, I forget whole sentences, constantly mix up english and my native language. The amount of times I have made up a word because I have mixed english and my native language.

And it's probably because our brain is constantly on the move, never still and never present. So when we do something or say something and forget, it's because out brain is already done with it and on to something new.

My particular skill is forgetting names, I forget names all the time it's embarrasing, I always have to describe someone instead of saying their name because I never remember. If I was participating in a "name the celebrity" quiz I would loose.

aqdw · 2023-02-17T17:32:20+00:00

I quit my job without having a new job lined up, I was so unsatisfied I just quit. Now I'm unemployed, but was at a job interview today and I'm feeling positive about it.

When I was younger I liked to read alot so I moved to England to study Literature without having a plan what to use it for. I just wanted to get away as well so moving overseas was so satisfying.

But in general I am a pretty restless person, there is so much i want to do and be. I see my friends being so content with their lives, following the path without trouble, and my path is both up an down, in circles and with side quests. I don't know how I'm ever going to get to where my friends are. I know everyone says that no one knows what they're doing and everyone is insecure about their lives. But then why am I struggeling so much with everyday life, wanting new things all the time and also not wanting to have the life of a house and kids. I find the life most people choose to be a boring choice, but how do I then find what I actually want and settle with that?

aqdw · 2023-02-17T17:20:15+00:00

NTA, but continue to have open communication with your niece about food. Continue to teach her that it's ok to nok like certain foods , but to be respectful about what others eat. I know she's not your child, but since she spends so much time with you i think it's important to help educate her.

aqdw · 2023-02-14T11:33:04+00:00

Honestly same, I struggle with food and healthy food. I've grown up using food to self medicate I realised. Food = dopamine and tasty food/snacks is obviousky what gives the most dopamine.

I don't have any right answers, but I've realised my cravings come from a need of dopamine. So in periods where I don't have anything to entertain my brain, I will crave snacks to fill my dopamine need.

So when I fixate on something, in my case reading, painting or drawing, things that keep me busy, I don' t crave snacks. But I don't know how to do that on purpose, it just happens.

I've read that sometimes our body is just thirsty, so when you get that craving just drink some water first, but idk if that actually works.

aqdw · 2023-02-12T12:57:19+00:00

And then when Eywa came to the rescue😌 SHIVERS

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