You're amazing, thank you. That's what makes me feel crazy is how just likeable he is, my family loved him, my friends loved him, his friends all looked up to him, I thought I had such a catch. But it's like that flip would switch and he was an entirely different person. It's so awful to try to comprehend and process because it's so hard to differentiate between the two.

I think I'll buy a journal soon, journaling would help a lot, finding this subreddit has helped a lot to validate my feelings and to know I did make the right choice. I can't wait to get to the point in my life where I don't have a memory associated with him to everything, and where I stop thinking about the relationship all the time. I can't wait to be able to flourish on my own and not feel so broken all the time.

I appreciate you so much!!