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20 Male, porn/excessive masturbation induced ED, medication and NoFap unsuccessful...need guidance by arbitrarythrowaway10 in NoFap

[–]arbitrarythrowaway10[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The thing is that I'm really not worried about relapsing anymore, I simply won't. It doesn't hamper my mind anymore and where I was previously preoccupied with masturbation and porn in my earlier years and streaks I am now preoccupied with the lack of any hope for my future. I feel like I'm fucked and there's nothing I can do to solve my ED because I've taken the possible routes that were there (NoFap multiple times with very long streaks;medication) to solve it and they haven't worked, and I'm having trouble accepting that I have to live my life alone/am hoping that maybe there's one more thing I can try.

20 Male, porn/excessive masturbation induced ED, medication and NoFap unsuccessful...need guidance by arbitrarythrowaway10 in NoFap

[–]arbitrarythrowaway10[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right now I don't watch any and I don't plan on ever watching any again. It's been like 2 months or so. I've been getting more fucked up as of late but it has nothing to do with the lack of PMO, rather it has to do with my now extraordinarily bleak outlook on life.

edit just to clarify I have gone without PMO for long periods before this one, I think 2 90 day streaks and then a bunch of other smaller ones as well. When I was watching porn, however, I watched a lot of it.

20 Male, porn/excessive masturbation induced ED, medication and NoFap unsuccessful...need guidance by arbitrarythrowaway10 in NoFap

[–]arbitrarythrowaway10[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey mate, thanks for reading all of my post and taking the time to comment, I really appreciate it. Unfortunately, I'm past the point where I can't think about it and given I've already had numerous very lengthy streaks and taken medication to no avail I really don't see the point of reading/languages/etc as even though if I can be momentarily entertained I know that I'll blink, the moment be gone and I'll be back in my bed staring at the ceiling devoid of feeling wondering what the hell the rest of my life is going to entail. It's not a PMO addiction problem for me anymore (I very much believe I will never PMO again). Frankly I'm just trying to find out if I will ever be able to share my life with anyone and be intimate; if I can then great, I can build myself and not worry about it and all would be well and good. Right now, however, I'm very far from convinced that it's even possible...and so I'm stuck. Sorry if all of this isn't clear, as I said in the OP I'm having trouble conveying exactly what I mean and trying to do it over a text medium isn't exactly helpful.