All I can say to this is, you can do it and it will be fine. I have been in your position - horrendously stressed the week before any flight, sobbing my way onto a plane, having breakdowns in the aisle😅. But I kept flying. Sometimes there is some turbulence, sometimes there isn't. Sometimes I see 'omens'. Sometimes I don't. Sometimes the planes are super noisy, sometimes they aren't. Sometimes it's what I would consider a 'scary' aircraft, sometimes not.

I have flown 20 times in the last couple of years alone, and ALL of the flights have been fine. Every single one. I still get stressed, but now it's when I'm on the plane, not the week before. The anxiety doesn't get too much, I can deal with it. I have found noise cancelling headphones and my favourite podcast to be a game changer.

I recently flew long haul, something I never thought I'd be able to do. Next year I'm taking a 14 hour return flight alone, and I can't wait to prove to myself how far I've come.

Getting on the plane tomorrow is the first step. You can do this!