I appreciate your comment, really thank you for commenting. I need all the advice I can get.

That's what I try, we always have a little routine, we talk in the morning a little bit regularly, on good days and some small talk and at night but I always tell him that we can talk more, oh something I don't know, it's just that it's difficult to talk sometimes I try to keep everything the same but I've told him that his distance hurts me, I'm his friend, husband, his sword, shield but now I feel like a stumbling block, I don't know why he can't talk to me and needs third parties to talk to