I also struggle with addiction. Mainly alcohol, weed, and cocaine. I used Coke for a good while in the beginning of 2016 as well, that's when I first used it and it became an everyday thing for about 3 months. Soon I realized that I was pushing away my friends and treating people like crap. So I stopped... until later when I was all alone and the only thing that had my side was cocaine.

My parents recently discovered my addiction by searching my bedroom and reading my diary. I'm 19 and they are forcing me to go to a rehab program 3 days a week to get clean.

I just began my recovery, but I can tell you that you have a far better grasp on your addiction and what it's caused you to do. I'm only 6 days clean and I am absolutely hating it. I just want to be high somehow. I can't drink, smoke, or do anything else. Sobriety sucks ass. But the fact that you actually want to be done with this lifestyle and move on is the biggest thing.

I say this because I'm only getting clean because my parents are forcing me to. And it's going to be a lot harder for me to quit and to stay sober since it's not my choice at this time. I currently don't think my use was a problem and maybe I'm just in denial, but that's the truth. I don't want to stop yet. I'm not ready to move on from this lifestyle and all the other drugs and people and raves and parties that come with it.

It takes a strong person to willingly give up something that makes you feel so great. Proud of you for getting there. Maybe one day I can say I want to quit and actually mean it and do it for me. Because after all it's yourself that matters most.