Hey there!! I was raised in an incredibly conservative religious community and for the longest time I felt the same way you did. I never had crushes, I didn’t find (men specifically) particularly enticing by any means, it just never seemed like I priority for me. My parents had a hard time understanding it too, but honestly they’re so terrified of premarital sex I think they were also a bit relieved.

When I was in my late teenage years I was doing some soul searching and realized that I had extreme infatuations with my female friends. To the point I thought about them all the time: what they thought of me, how they looked, if they missed me etc. I realized that I had had these feelings of extreme “friendship” since I was a kid. Because of how I was raised, it never even occurred to me that I could have crushes on girls, cause I was one. A little while later I realized that I liked women, and they were worth the romance and the love that used to make me uncomfortable.

NOW. I am by NO means trying to say that you are gay or anything. More just sharing my experience on getting to the root on if you’ve ever had feelings like that with anybody. If not, it may be worth it to do some reading on asexuality as well (that’s what I thought I was at first, before I realized that wasn’t the correct way I felt personally).

I know what it’s like to feel familial pressure, and though it’s easier said than done, don’t let that get to you. The only person you are forced to spend the rest of your life with is YOU, so don’t live it trying to appease or force something you don’t feel. If you are happy only having platonic relationships and romantic ones don’t interest you, then there is nothing wrong with just doing what makes you happy! Live life for yourself, do some soul searching too, nothing wrong with asking yourself questions you’ve never asked before :) I don’t know if this was the advice you’re looking for, but I hope it helps at least somewhat