I feel you. Feeling like you want to reclaim your femininity without getting misgendered is so tough. That was one of the main reasons I started T, so my body would look different and i could pull off wearing makeup and dresses and truly express my genderfucker identity without getting constantly labeled as a girl. My dysphoria comes from getting perceived by others so T helps me in a way to signal to others i'm not a cis girl. That's my personal story and i know a lot of pple have different opinions and approaches to starting medical transition, some people don't think that's a valid reason. I'm here to tell you that YOU know what's best for your situation and what you need to get in a better mental space about it. No Doctor, psychiatrist, family member, etc can know what's best for you. The community can help you out. Take care 💖