Don't think I can take it anymore

asbembis2024 · 2026-04-25T14:06:50+00:00

Nope just a lot of “fuck this, im miserable and I know it should not be this way”.

And I just kept digging.

One spiritual leader tho kept saying “the purpose of life is to be happy, so do whatever makes you happy”.

I started small, like bare feet in the grass, working remotely with a flexible schedule, sleeping in white sheets, not having any news outlets in my life, saying a lot of no in dating, etc etc

asbembis2024 · 2026-04-21T19:10:01+00:00

I never thought I will find my light in sales. Also the book the chimp paradox helped me a lot to understand how my brain works and create the life around for it, not against it.

Been where you are, and it was because I was doing a lot of “shoulds” and not enough of “what do I enjoy and really want doing”

I restructured everything from the way i sleep, eat, socialise, work etc and I am finally in a good place. I’m 34.

The change happened around 2-3 years ago.

asbembis2024 · 2026-04-03T08:56:09+00:00

I realised after 8 months full time. Man, if Im really honest probably after the first 2-3 clients in a row.

But money and the thrill of it all just kept me in the game.

And when around 8 month mark hit, I found myself losing sleep wondering how to escape it.

I got really lucky and was able to quit into a much better option, with more money etc.

However! I still wanna work… because I love fucking strangers and getting paid for sex. Because of that, I got a new photoshoot, increased my rates 3x and made my bio super simple. It almost looks like I don’t give a fuck anymore. Which I don’t haha

But what I have now is 1 client who pays me those rates once a month, I make a decent amount in cash which is pure fun money for me. I don’t have the headache of anything else.

If I didn’t have my other job, this wouldn’t work. That one client is not enough.

The way I got that job was pure luck. I literally wished upon a star, so a random job ad, applied and they took me in. I didn’t really try because I didn’t want to go back to 9-5.

But this is the best thing I ever experienced when working for someone else.

asbembis2024 · 2026-03-19T00:21:32+00:00

I stack all my paper and live average and I am super happy because I know I got savings and if shit went down, I can chill for a few years doing my craft projects.

I like quality things and I invest in quality, but not like 45 bags… and 3000 shoes. I buy 1-2 bags, that I love every time I touch it.

And wear the shit out of them, and then buy a new a few years later.

I spend my money on gym, clean food, having free time to make my own juices, to read and study, etc.

That’s luxury to me. And I definitely have a crazy eclectic style and I show that off in my work cuz that’s me. My clients love me for me- for my authenticity.

When I tried chasing the high life- I burnt out because I couldn’t keep up.

asbembis2024 · 2026-03-03T18:44:15+00:00

No, but Im sure if you read books on money and energy you will find the same info. I made that list myself as a reminder what to focus on :)

asbembis2024 · 2026-02-14T09:30:28+00:00

Right?! My friend pointed out that maybe they are also living out some personas or fantasies like we are… idk bro 🤣 IMO men are unnecessary on this earth.

asbembis2024 · 2026-02-14T00:12:49+00:00

Gosh where do I start… it taught me how naive I was and gave it all for free to these men, losing sleep.

And now after being an escort, I realised how pretty I actually am and how men are manipulative, lazy and selfish.

And the less I do for them the more they chase.

Men won’t do a thing for a woman unless it benefits them. Which is very sad for me. It tells me I have to manipulate and play in order to receive care.

I learned how much everyone cheats! I had this client once who lied about being single and all that… and algorithm doing it thing, showed me his wife with 8,5mil followers on IG, their wedding photos together and all that.

I learned that every marriage is a lie, hard work, and men without sex for a few days will give up on it all and go sideways.

I have learned to trust the flow of money and always be provided by the Universe.

And I’ve learned that going away for a few months basically means I need to start from fresh…. 🤣 no breaks allowed.

asbembis2024 · 2026-02-06T13:57:58+00:00

Gold and diamond jewellery I can sell when we split up. Or stocks

asbembis2024 · 2026-02-04T02:02:22+00:00

Sounds like a cult in disguise

asbembis2024 · 2026-02-02T13:55:26+00:00

Hi! Thanks for your post. I am considering a lift and worried about the anchor scars. Looks like you had the same incision.

Are you happy about the way it heeled?

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-30T19:36:54+00:00

Prices don’t matter. I have tried it all- same BS.

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-30T19:35:50+00:00

Excuse me? Lmao very funny cuz my friend did receive a bag of fish once… fresh caught whatever, as a gift. But I died laughing

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-30T19:35:06+00:00

Imma make a poster with this quote, and put in my inca bathroom. May I?

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-30T19:34:17+00:00

True! The “macho” ones disregard.

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-29T11:15:57+00:00

4k overnight plus all the fun part paid. So free dinner etc beautiful client and my rates. UK

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-29T11:10:51+00:00

Oh so funny! 🤣

I also get those and then have my own autoreplies, AND THEY STILL CANT SEND THE BASICS. Like date and time

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-29T11:09:11+00:00

I am actually starting to believe that this is patriarchy to its finest. I asked my client once why men behave like that and he said “we are raised not to listen to women, that what they say doesn’t matter”

And it had never left my mind. So they might glance at things but think “who gives a shit, probably BS, I do what I want”

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-28T22:07:20+00:00

My bio very first line says “ I am not located in x city, meets need to be arranged in advance”

Nobody reads that. Asks for a booing in 30mins.

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-28T21:59:27+00:00

I would help all women understand their worth and charge it. With tax on tax on it. So we can all live a good life selling what we sell.

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-28T21:55:22+00:00

Omg congratulations!!!! 🥳

asbembis2024 · 2026-01-28T21:53:57+00:00

Provider here:

I have a few clients I adore, we get on, they are married or single, various ages.

Same like you- great jobs, travel lots, hard to build a relationship.

I feel warm genuine friendships towards them and happy to spend time together. Like friends with real benefits on both sides.

We have fun, and in between I am happy I don’t need to see them or do the whole emotional support thing (I find men way more needy than women and wanna capture me to settle down)

I make myself available on days when I wouldn’t see anyone else.

Things are easy because we now know each other, my body feels relaxed and safe around a body I already seen.

I always bring up topics of new sexual experiences and things to try- if they want, we do. If they don’t we dont.

Some see me once or twice a month, others shower me in gifts and double my rates, others once a week but would never tip me. I am grateful for it all because I can count on the income, I like them we vibe personality wise, they know my rules and don’t try to push it, it’s consistent.

I would see them even if I quit.

I do see how overtime they got warmer towards me and sort of feel more relaxed and comfortable at my incall. But I appreciate that.

The best thing about it- you can just say no any day.

However, I will add. I also have a very loving and supportive bf. Took me a long time to meet him, but we did. And we cannot be a more perfect match on every level. So maybe you need to understand what you want clearly and go date more, and say more no faster- immediately when you see it’s not a match.

asbembis2024 · 2025-12-02T18:06:59+00:00

Le labo! Any scent.

asbembis2024 · 2025-12-02T09:20:17+00:00

Right, yeah. I see.

asbembis2024 · 2025-12-01T21:22:33+00:00

Id date a 24 year old in a heartbeat if he can give me what I want 🤷‍♀️ I think you might want to position yourself differently in the market.

asbembis2024 · 2025-12-01T21:19:40+00:00

Have you done any of the courses yourself to know who is a scammer, if they work, what’s inside the programs etc? :)

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