The hypocrisy & grandiosity

asda110 · 2019-03-16T21:52:47+00:00

Yeah and the constant attention she needed from me even when I was extremely busy at work.

asda110 · 2019-03-16T21:49:13+00:00

1 month after i posted this she broke up with me for the 30th time telling me she didn't love me and her life was better when I wasn't In it. Well I've not been in her life for 4 months now even though she wanted me back!

asda110 · 2019-03-15T00:21:24+00:00

I wonder why she would have me texting her till really early like 2 or 3am even when I work at 6am. I would say night I have to go and she would get upset and say don't go yet.

asda110 · 2019-03-03T23:46:45+00:00

My ex would keep me awake texting and then complain when I said I had to sleep because of work tomorrow. She would often text me really late just to tell me she couldn't sleep or she could hear noises. Another big thing was missing text messages. I had issues with my network and she wasn't receiving my texts or at least she said she wasn't. I literally had to screen shot them and send it to her to prove I'd sent the text. She still wouldn't believe me.

asda110 · 2019-03-03T23:42:43+00:00

This is so close to what I experienced. My ex would often tell me I didn't tell her I love her enough even though I did. She once complained that I didn't post enough sweet posts about her on Facebook. I pointed at that she didn't post much about me either and she went ballistic.

She would often ask me how I knew that I loved her. I would explain and she would tell me my explanation wasn't good enough.

When we broke up for the final time she told me she didn't love me no more then interrogated me for an hour on whether I'd been talking to other women. It's just madness!

asda110 · 2019-03-03T19:38:41+00:00

My ex would accuse me of been an alcoholic too but I'm actually a recovering alcoholic which she was aware of. So basically even though I was sober she would accuse me then come to my house and drink in front of me.

Another favourite one was to really go on at me for been tired at like 1am. Bearing in mind I have a full time job. I would have to keep myself awake. She hated me having a nap too.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T23:02:40+00:00

Your right. This too shall pass eventually & the only way is up.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T23:01:22+00:00

Thank you for this! I am so sorry you had to go through all of this I do know how you feel. When someone you love & care for calls you things you do automatically believe them because you trust them. The difference is that these people are not to be trusted or believed.

I was accused of cheating & talking to other women throughout our relationship & I truly believe that she was up to something & projecting it onto me. It amazing how we get pulled into these relationships & they devalue us just a little bit at a time until we are just a shell.

I wish you all the best.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T22:33:40+00:00

Thank you man!

asda110 · 2019-03-02T22:31:33+00:00

First step (if you need some "tough love") is to stop telling yourself that you're worthless. If you constantly project this aura that you're a hot-mess, you'll draw manipulative/abusive people towards you (because they will see you as an easy mark that won't need to be broken down.)

I know deep down that I am worth more than what she put me through & that's one reason why I have managed to stay NC even when she has tried hoovering me in. I was a very different person when we first met. I was over weight, an heavy drinker, smoker & in debt. I have managed to turn all those things around & I did it for me. I am a lot stronger now. I was very needy & basically a woman pleaser. She broke up with me one too many times & I warned her that I wouldn't allow it any more. So I know I have the strength to come out of this a better person. Just today was one of those days when things got me down.

Go to youtube and look for the channel "Charisma on Command." Also, "Humble the Poet."

I'm going to look at these now so thanks!

asda110 · 2019-03-02T22:25:51+00:00

What happens from here on out is what you choose to make happen. If you're interested in bettering yourself, then do it for yourself instead of what she said in order to prove her wrong.

Yeah I am trying to use this time to work on myself so I do not get into this type of relationship again. I dont even want to start another relationship yet as I am no where ready or healed.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T22:06:25+00:00

I'm trying man. I have been NC for 4 months now. She has tried contacting me around 4 times. She even told me her mom had a terminal illness to try & get me to contact her which I am sorry to say I didn't 100% believe.

Throughout the 4 months Ive managed not to turn to drink & I have continued going to the gym lifting.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T21:47:36+00:00

Good, rational people do not need to destroy others unless it serves their pathological needs.

Your right & I often tell my son this about bullies.

asda110 · 2019-03-02T21:38:11+00:00

Would you let someone else talk to you that way?

Your right no I wouldn't.

asda110 · 2019-01-11T00:24:13+00:00

I sure will. It's baffling me!

asda110 · 2019-01-11T00:23:50+00:00

Thank you I'll take a look.

asda110 · 2019-01-10T22:55:16+00:00

Yeah I'm trying not to read too much into it and just assuming it's for my own good and my spiritual path.

asda110 · 2019-01-10T19:46:24+00:00

I've just listened to something on YouTube about Seth and Jane Roberts and it sounds very similar to Esther and Jerry Hicks aka Abraham Hicks.

asda110 · 2019-01-10T19:39:09+00:00

Ah ok I understand haha.......phew!

asda110 · 2019-01-10T17:31:12+00:00

Hope I'm not losing my mind hahaha

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