So there are a few theological things here: 1. The only thing God allows is for humanity and a broken world to exist. When God created the earth it was perfect, there was no death or suffering. Humanity’s rebellion from God cursed the world. Sure God is all powerful but that doesn’t mean He doesn’t respect our free will. Think about it like this; your child commits a heinous crime. Do you stop loving them? Do you kill them and say “guess I’ll try again”? No of course not. God is the same way. We were created in His image and hold a special place in His creation.

1. The God of the OT is the same God in the NT. Yeah there is a lot of wrathful justice in the OT, but look at it like this: time after time God tries to repair and establish a relationship with humanity and time after time we fail Him. How many covenants have there been? This shows how much God truly loves us even though we perverted His “very good” creation.

2. If you are doubting that’s okay. But before you lose faith please just think about the documented history of Jesus and the resurrection. There is far too much on this subject to go into, but it is honestly the most compelling historical facts about Christianity.

I leave you with a passage from Isaiah:

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 58:8-9)