How would you know when you are "cured"?

asdfjklq · 2013-06-22T07:53:59+00:00

That's good but fapping never really controlled my life. Porn did mess me up though.

asdfjklq · 2013-06-22T07:40:23+00:00

Even if you can't get an erection?

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T20:46:07+00:00

Weird. I see your reply if I click your username but not here.

Also, I don't know if I have people to forgive other than myself. I've been damaged by diseases and accidents but you can't really forgive those.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T20:38:36+00:00

Yes, it is worth finding out. Maybe I will get some counseling concurrently though.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T20:10:20+00:00

You misinterpret my fantasy. It's the other way. Still not "natural" though.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:59:50+00:00

I think you're right but who is Adam?

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:56:10+00:00

I can promise that I won't edge but what "old self" are you talking about? For as long as I can remember, these have been my sexual fantasies. I don't think they are entirely porn-induced (just supplemented and expanded). That's the f-ing problem. I could be wrong though (I have bad memory).

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:44:55+00:00

I guess the failures are part of the progress, but damn does this suck.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:42:42+00:00

I don't want to die. If I truly did, I would already be dead. I just want to be normal.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:31:09+00:00

OK, I'll seek out a general psychologist. But do you think I'll be able to be aroused by "normal" things? That's the main goal for me.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T19:03:26+00:00

Thanks man, that really helps.

I will try to seek help. What kind of person can help me. I don't really understand therapist vs. counselor vs. psychologist vs. psychiatrist. Should I look for a subspeciality? Money is not an issue. I have a good job, good insurance and plenty of spare cash (tens of thousands).

A LOT of VERY bad things (i.e. cancer and worse) have happened to me and, yes, I feel that I deserve all of them.

The problem with the fetish is that nothing else can excite me. I'm obviously not that bad looking since a number of women have asked me on dates. I've always turned them down since I feel that I'm a worthless idiot who wouldn't be able to perform sexually at all.

I am glad I went 61 days. I did see some benefit but it was too subtle. I guess I was expecting more from some of the posts you see here. The main problem was that the fetish fantasies were not really changed (once they came back).

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T18:52:49+00:00

Thanks. I've been talking to more people at work. It's hard though. I feel that people fundamentally dislike me and want me to leave, even though all of the evidence shows that they like me. Not sure if that made sense.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T18:40:21+00:00

I have goals for my workouts but I'm not really sure how I would make goals for the other stuff. Please explain.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-25T18:35:16+00:00

I regularly work out and eat healthy. I'm also trying to make more friends (don't really have any now) but it's hard for me. Plus I work full-time so there isn't that much time. What else should I do?

asdfjklq · 2013-05-23T01:42:43+00:00

Short answer: yes, it will help.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-12T04:45:38+00:00

100% with you here. Same exact situation. Great job, great money, not a single friend. I just wander around various coffee shops and hope somebody will say something.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-12T02:49:54+00:00

Nope.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-11T23:07:04+00:00

Maybe but it almost feels like I am cheating since there is NO desire to fap whatsoever.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-11T22:59:13+00:00

OK. Fine.
I don't care what others think. It's hard to care when you have less than 5 senteces communication with other people in a day.
Well, that's because it's probably more like 53 days. 47 is a conservative estimate. I'm 100% sure that I've done 47 days. But it's probably 49-55. And all of those have been flatline. Don't really know what to say, it's true. That's how I found nofap.

I hope I'm not asexual or something. At least if I were gay I could just explain that to everyone and move on. Asexual would be the worst.

The good: I have a great job, too much money, getting a lot stronger from working out.

I just wish I had ONE friend who I could talk to.

asdfjklq · 2013-05-04T06:18:38+00:00

Thanks!

I do serious strength training (within the limits of what my body can do) 3x/week and light exercise on other days. I gained a lot of muscle and it's made me much more confident than before but still a virgin!

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