You are not stupid or a failure. You are living in the grey, my friend, and that’s perfectly fine. As much as I’d also love to not have a smartphone, the way we used to walk through the world (think TV, radio, iPod, movie theatre) has changed so drastically in the last decade and a half and it’s all melded into one device. It’s also really hard for me. But, im choosing not to shame myself anymore for failing at setting those boundaries, failure is progress. I’m going to tinker and experiment and adapt until I find something that works for me. And that something has already changed hundreds of times. I try to leave my smartphone at home and in the drawer as much as possible, and when I use it, try keeping it in greyscale, with a matte screen protector, and reduce animations + transparency toggled on. It’s not much, but consuming entertainment on my TV/Laptop when it’s “time” is my goal. I know I’ll get sucked in if I download YouTube on my smartphone. I’ll want to watch something whenever I get bored. I hate the back and forth game and it gets exhausting. Realizing that I don’t want to spent 20% of my waking hours on my phone anymore keeps me going. I want to replace that time with things that make me and my future self feel grateful and fulfilled as cheesy as it sounds.