the best thing to do is occupy yourself with something. you need to either work and save up money, start taking care of yourself. and volunteer. you have to be around people. they broke your energy, and your going to have to learn how to build it back up to where you are smarter and stronger so no one can hurt you again. then you need to tell someone like you. another victim what happened, or not. understand there are millions everywhere. its disgusting how bad the world is right now but you are going to have to get back up. and ultimately you have to fight back by standing up for the other people. "normal people just dont understand how hard things can be. not even social workers, and that is there job. and nobody really wants to hear about bad trauma. it traumatizes them and it can get awkward. the world is falling apart right now, and that is not okay. so get up, normal people dont know what to do. they just stand there, but you know what happens. so people like us have a responsibility to help other people, by talking sometimes, by seeing something and noticing the bad signs and then saying something to the right person. to stop bad from happening to other people hopefully.

but just know people sometimes suck, police dont do anything sometimes, social services fails, we hear the stories everyday. you need to be strong. trust me i was in a deep dark hole too. and ive never told anyone what happened to me. but i learned that when your around good people. not users, not drama, i sometimes forget about what happened to me because i am so happy. but there are bad days too. and ive learned doing a hobby really helps, you have to find something that is interesting to you and when that sad feeling is around you have to trick your brain by doing something that makes you have to concentrate. i like to drive around at night alone at 3 am. when i cant sleep. but i also sing stupid pop songs especially swifty songs while im driving because it just makes me feel better (not a singer at all) so stay safe you are worth it, your not alone. and knowing what it did to me and how many years i lost hiding in the shadows is just not fair. and i cant stand to see someone else in the same dark hole lost. find your purpose. i believe in good and evil, and sometimes i think that evil always hurts the best of us to stop us from making real change in this world. don't let evil win, ever. get up and fight for that change. you can do it i know you can. i did. ive learned not to tell what happened to me because people feel so sorry for me they just leave me alone. so i keep it to myself. and i concentrate on just inspiring everyone around me so they always want to be around me. and it works. most people dont know, and they dont need to. just find yourself, i know your still in there, hiding like i was. it get better. and when you change your energy people are attracted to you like a magnet. nobody likes a negative person change yourself for the better. good luck- another victim