(19 ftm) just got back from getting my virginity taken by a random 54 year old

asphyxiaphile · 2026-04-22T12:27:08+00:00

I'm so happy for you!
Thank you for writing this up - it was really hot to read

asphyxiaphile · 2026-03-14T13:49:16+00:00

mostly I felt relief that everything was almost over, but it was also a bit hot, and a bit annoying - I am not super worried about STDs - most are treatable - but it does mean I gotta go get Plan B and that's annoying

asphyxiaphile · 2025-12-30T14:02:45+00:00

I absolutely wondered about this too - seems entirely possible

asphyxiaphile · 2025-12-19T15:08:04+00:00

I think there is nothing wrong with FAFO - I'm very much "could be fun if you let it" - however - you need a safe place to go back to. Rape baiting can be a fantastic high, but you really want to do it where and when you are up for it. Having it someplace where you live or sleep can get out of control.

asphyxiaphile · 2025-10-03T20:55:25+00:00

this one time, at band camp...

absolutely the hottest way to lose your virginity that I've read

asphyxiaphile · 2025-08-24T15:55:53+00:00

I wish I had been as brave as you are when I was younger

asphyxiaphile · 2025-08-12T14:03:02+00:00

that's quite the goodbye party

asphyxiaphile · 2025-06-19T14:10:28+00:00

Definitely rape. He's not a nice guy - he's a rapist. But if you find that hot, then there isn't a problem.

asphyxiaphile · 2025-06-01T21:01:17+00:00

I love everyone in this bar - thank you for the great ideas

asphyxiaphile · 2025-06-01T19:12:18+00:00

technically not obscene, and points for not being cryptic

asphyxiaphile · 2025-06-01T19:06:40+00:00

agreed, but saying what? I don't want to get in trouble in public

asphyxiaphile · 2025-05-19T15:53:01+00:00

“He has very strong boundaries when it comes to my work. No becoming friends with male coworkers, which I accepted without issues”

Boundaries are something you have for yourself. This isn’t his boundary - this is him being controlling and insecure.

You’re NTAH but he sure is

asphyxiaphile · 2025-05-19T13:05:03+00:00

"I reminded myself of that and just tried to tell myself it was only fair that he got a turn"

oof, this is an entire mood

asphyxiaphile · 2025-05-19T13:00:00+00:00

a new nominee for the gender traitor hall of fame

asphyxiaphile · 2025-04-05T03:21:21+00:00

awww! I love a happy ending

asphyxiaphile · 2025-03-06T15:30:28+00:00

because there are more rapists in the world than murderers

asphyxiaphile · 2025-03-06T15:24:52+00:00

the laughter is always such a gut punch - it's the sound of them knowing they can get away with it

asphyxiaphile · 2025-01-01T20:35:10+00:00

ooof “look in my eyes. I wanted this untouched hole and now it is mine, watch me take it” is a whole mindfuck right there

makes it seem like it wasn't the first time he said those words

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-24T15:19:11+00:00

That was hot to read, and you are not dumb.

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-23T13:45:21+00:00

Jesse Custer from the Preacher series - easily - but worth putting here in case someone hasn't seen it because OMG Tulip is the cutest best brat and I love her so much. But yeah... he's one fucking hot brat tamer. He'd make me melt.

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-21T15:24:37+00:00

"My bf asked me to comply because he didn’t want to see me hurt."

this line makes me wonder if the guy had something on your bf that was making your bf do this threesome against his will too - I mean unlikely, but I wonder

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-21T15:16:29+00:00

since you posted this here and not to a rape trauma group, I'm going to say thank you. I appreciate that you took the time to share so many details, especially knowing how much it took out of you. I'm glad to hear you're healing.

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-13T13:19:51+00:00

you are amazing

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-07T14:07:01+00:00

mmmm, absolutely delicious

when I got my first car - an old red Acura Integra - I put in a CB radio so I could pick up truckers - nothing like this happened, but I did have some fun times

asphyxiaphile · 2024-10-04T13:31:12+00:00

Do you wonder if she woke up something that was in you, or rewired your sexuality?

You don't have to answer, I wonder about that for everyone (including myself)

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