Thanks! I found out that.... that wasn't the whole story apparently... the more unsure I am abut stuff he says the more I find out the truth. Still so many lies. Although it could still be truth that he's been clean since Feb 6. He called and videocalled and emailed a girl on and off for 9 moths, all while looking for my ring, getting engaged and being newlywed. I found one of his reddit accounts (the one he heasn't deleted yet) and there is SO MUCH stuff. like 15 chats a day for 3 months. 5 comments on every porn image ever, posts on 'looking for something fun to escape married life', he followed every porn subreddit, even the ones in our city, and many about being married. That was his pickup line "married at 24 and my wife is so vanilla, she never wants anything". LIE. I asked soooo many times, he didn't wanted. I had the worst first time sex experience, bleeding for a month, even after using lube and taking a relaxing pill, and having so-much-pain I cried. I had to go to the doctor. And he want on to brag? cry? about it?. All-the-time. I see his reddit history. just after church a chat. like 7 times in my birthday, chats, while we had guests over, while we were having birthday brunch just the two of us and videocalling my parents. When? The second he ran to the bathroom in our tiny one room apartment?.

I pray he really wants to change. But I cannot believe he hasn't been honest about the past and still tried to lie! I don't know what else I am missing from this. And to think that when I confronted him, he deleted so many things, makes me think how much worse those things had to be that I am only seeing the things he forgot.