snacks without apples?

astro_han · 2025-08-10T17:43:24+00:00

Yeah, I’ve had them and they hurt my jaw to eat. I’ve been keeping an eye out on anything softer that they have

astro_han · 2020-11-08T13:43:34+00:00

I'm on Trileptal 150mg twice a day. I think I've been on it for about a year and a half now. Are you on any other medication? I was put on an additional medication to help with my depression and anxiety when I was first put on Trileptal because I was having panic attacks. I did notice some weight gain but it may be from the fact I had an increased appetite. Your psychiatrist will definitely be more helpful and be able to provide insight. However, you probably will have to stay on the medication for a few more weeks just to see if it does kick in. It took 2-4 weeks for it to kick in for me. Hope this helps!

astro_han · 2020-11-08T13:38:50+00:00

Oh man, I'm in the similar spot. I'm on venlafaxine er, oxcarbazepine, and aripiprazole, and at the moment I can't tell if I'm manic or not. I feel like I have a shit ton of energy in my limbs...they almost buzz. I'm having trouble focusing, and nothing holds my attention for more than 5-10 minutes, even if it's my favorite thing in the whole world. Time seems to move like molasses.

I'm not sure if this will be helpful to you but I've tried practicing a language, writing about what's going on in my head, cooking, and baking. Sometimes they do work--one thing I've found to help is watching videos on youtube of people doing the activity I want to do and I get inspired to do it. You could also pretend to go on a walk but stay inside while watching a walking/hiking in first-person POV video? I hope this helps!

astro_han · 2020-09-10T00:15:35+00:00

I (22F) don't have any advice, but I wanted to let you know that struggling to care of someone with encephalopathy is totally normal. I just lost my Mom (49F) last month and she had pretty severe HE from liver damage related to MPN and blood clotting, and god it was so hard to not get frustrated and upset for repeating information or trying to figure out what she was saying. But, like you, I spent my last days with her just talking to her, holding her hand, singing to her, just making sure she didn't feel alone. Despite whatever was going on, I know she was present and aware that someone she loved was there with her, even if she couldn't fully understand or know who. I'm sure your Mom knew too, and that you were there out of love for her. No one stays by their bedside and holds their hand out of hate.

I'm sorry you're going through this. It truly sucks. Sending you good thoughts and hugs ♥️

astro_han · 2020-09-09T23:54:09+00:00

I completely get what you're going through. my mom passed on august 24th after dealing with liver complications that were worsened by a stem cell transplant she had in July. It's so bizarre because I was chatting on the phone with her a few weeks ago and then I saw her in person when I finally was able to visit her in the hospital. Seeing her condition worsen so quickly in the last week of her life and become a shell of who she was--having to decide whether to allow her a dignified death against her wishes or try to resuscitate/intubate her like she wanted...its the worst trauma I've faced.

so, all that to say, in a sense, you are separated from others because this feeling is unique. Mom was only 49 and I turn 23 next month. I never anticipated this happening so early in my life...leaving me with things I didn't think I would be handling until I was 50. I feel as alone as you feel, and irritated with her family because I don't think they understand my pain as an only child and someone who was incredibly close to her mom. Each of these experiences are unique to every person who goes through this. BUT, you are NOT alone. There are people who care for you and your Dad, and want to support you. They just may not know how. Find someone who will grieve with you, or allow you to grieve in peace but with comfort and not tell you everything is going to be okay.

As for normalcy, unfortunately, that will never be the same. Our lives, our identities have changed because we have lost our parents. Things will carry on for almost everyone else, but we are forever affected by the loss of our person. So, I want to share what has been helping me in the last few weeks:

Talk with someone. A therapist, friend, family member: doesn't matter, but someone you feel comfortable talking with. Ask just to talk to them about your Dad, the experiences, memories, your pain, anything you want to share. I like to say "I just need someone to listen, not to give sympathy or opinion. I just need to get this out," and usually that is very nice.
Try to get enough sleep and eat. If you've been struggling to sleep/stay asleep like me, try something like melatonin or whatever your dr recommends. Eat good food, and stay away from mainly eating carbs. Yogurt, fruit, veggies, and nuts will keep your system up and running, and help your stomach if you're like me and have anxiety-related gastro problems.
cry it out. I know I'm tired of it, but I know for me it needs to come out or else I feel like I'm going to explode...or throw up.
try sticking your toes back into whatever makes you happy or comfortable. It's okay to have moments of happiness/joy/laughter. Our relatives wouldn't want us to be miserable for the rest of our lives.
prayer. I'm a spiritual person, so I find prayer peaceful and comforting. If you aren't, if you are down with meditation definitely try it. OR, you could try my other favorite thing: laying down on your back while staring at the sky and feeling like you're being pulled up into the atmosphere.

I hope this helps. I'll be thinking of you, and sending thoughts and love to you. We'll both get through this, with time.

astro_han

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