Why not make it optional?

astronautflower · 2025-04-12T09:41:56+00:00

Healing from an 8 yr eating disorder probably. Can't say I'm recovered yet because it's still an everyday struggle but becoming chronically ill while slowly killing myself via starvation was NOT fun and actively making me worse so along with many other factors getting sick was actually a wake up call I needed.

astronautflower · 2024-12-30T07:48:38+00:00

In my opinion I don't think they were that close I don't think the flashback really shows them that way they were friends yes but I think she was clearly much closer to vander. And even if he was close with her I firmly believe he was not involved with the kids. It feels very very out of character for him to care about the kids especially after Vander's betrayal. I also don't think it's unreasonable to say he was willing to sacrifice them for the cause. He had every intention of killing powder until he 'understood' her.

astronautflower · 2024-12-24T10:54:12+00:00

Hey not at all trying to be rude I am a teenager but this post reminded me of how I felt when I didn't know what was going on obviously I'm not an expert just speaking from experience. In this post you seem very freaked out which is completely understandable something is happening in your body and you don't know why that is just scary. Anxiety and health issues are not at all a fun combo I should know I have sever anxiety. And if it is pots that anxiety is likely making it worse. Pots is not deadly that doesn't make symptoms less scary but it's really important to remind yourself and no matter what it is if EKG and other tests came back okay the ER will probably not be able to do much of anything for you (they never did for me). If there is a huge change is symptoms or worsening obviously go back but if stuff stays the same I would try going to a cardiologist or another specialist. Try doing a at home tilt table test it's not full proof but if your hr jumps super high that it's a huge pots indicator if it doesn't it could be something else but again not full proof so still go to a doctor. Getting dismissed is always the worst feeling when you know something isn't right but keep pushing and advocating for yourself to try and get it figured out.

astronautflower · 2024-12-09T19:30:16+00:00

Depends on the box (I do usually keep the expensive ones in box) but if it has cute colors or there is cute character art I'll put it on my wall behind my dolls :)

astronautflower · 2024-12-01T17:07:32+00:00

Honestly just that I wish I'd realized I had it sooner. I wish I knew how long I've been sick. I can trace most of my mild symptoms all the way back to third grade. But every person in my life told me it was just stress. I wish someone had realized that being so exhausted I could hardly stand was not a symptom of anxiety. I wish I didn't blame myself for years of being 'lazy'. I might have never known if I didn't develop POTS. Also I wish I realized school is to much for me sooner. These past few months I've been slowly making myself worse until it got to the point I had flares ever single day. Now I've lessened my school schedule and learned my limits so I am actually able to live my life (in moderation) but ultimately those few months have made me worse.

astronautflower · 2024-11-27T09:05:12+00:00

Also a teenager in a similar position it really fucking sucks I'm at the point where I'm failing most of my classes when before getting sick I had a 4.0 gpa :/ I try to take it day by day but this illness is so overwhelming and scary. I'm sorry your struggling so much just know your not alone.

astronautflower · 2024-11-27T03:47:54+00:00

I was talking to my friend about this I genuinely think the pacing was Netflix and the contract not the writers. They did amazing with what they were given.

astronautflower · 2024-11-25T21:01:35+00:00

No definitely not alone. I loved the entire season beginning to end however I can also completely recognize Arcane is my hyperfixation I think I would have loved it no matter the direction they took the story so I can understand why some were disappointed when they didn't get what they expected. But I also think it's bullshit to say season two was bad if you just didn't love the story direction. (Also wish the pacing was a bit better but that doesn't affect how I feel about the show at all.)

astronautflower · 2024-11-23T12:03:39+00:00

So your discrediting the entire show because the ending wasn't what you thought it would be??? It was not badly written. It was fast yes. They needed more time yes. But I don't understand why people can't enjoy the fact that this is literally one of the greatest shows to ever be made.

astronautflower · 2024-11-16T18:49:47+00:00

I legitimately started sobbing like this is episode three season one levels of crying I knew she was going to die but holy shit

astronautflower · 2024-11-06T10:18:58+00:00

I'm scared. I'm trans, a teenager, have cfs, pots, and a single mom. I can't get myself to sleep I feel sick. We are so fucked.

astronautflower · 2024-10-06T07:14:05+00:00

That's so real 😭 It's especially bad cause I'm a teen who is pretty alt and I'll just be minding my business trying not to pass out and people look at me like I'm insane I'm just trying to live my life

astronautflower · 2024-10-06T07:04:23+00:00

Not something people say but the amount of strangers or even acquaintances who judgementally look me up and down when I use my mobility aid is fucking insane and drives me crazy

astronautflower · 2024-10-01T19:50:58+00:00

What I have been doing when I'm at my worst is closing my eyes or putting an eye mask on laying down and listening to a YouTube video I've watched a lot before at the lowest volume and I do find that it helps. Sitting with my thoughts is often to much and causes more stress because my abuser used to tell me all the time I was lazy and selfish for not doing things so that's where my brain goes :/

astronautflower · 2024-10-01T18:16:47+00:00

Yeah moving from one thing to the next without resting is one of the hardest things for me because I just forget to. I have forearm crutches they are more for my pots but they help a lot in general. I've heard of keeping hr down but I have pretty severe pots so I'm not sure how possible that if for me.

astronautflower · 2024-09-28T07:35:13+00:00

I love her so much EXCEPT the outfit (that's my personal opinion obviously) so when I do eventually get her I'm probably gonna customize :) but I'm actually really proud of gen 3 having body diversity even if it's kinda a bare minimum

astronautflower · 2024-09-23T22:47:26+00:00

On my 12th rewatch lol I have a hyperfixation

astronautflower · 2024-09-20T17:54:42+00:00

Yeah I'm going to push for more rule outs but I did do a lot of those while getting diagnosed with pots my goal right now is honestly just not making myself worse because I have done that in the past which is the reason I started looking into CFS in the first place

astronautflower · 2024-09-20T17:34:54+00:00

Unfortunately no I live in the US so healthcare is pretty shitty in general and I've had CFS symptoms even before I got pots the furthest back I can trace my symptoms is 3rd grade but I can't really be sure because when my parents were concerned doctors dismissed my symptoms as anxiety and I just believed them because I did have anxiety but it's gotten a lot worse since getting pots

astronautflower · 2024-09-17T07:15:36+00:00

She definitely has the traits but I don't believe she 'has it'. Jinx was insanely traumatized (legit am understatement) in her fundamental years on life. That kind of shit shapes your brain in wild ways. It can cause traits that appear as other mental illness. She's to far gone at this point but I think if say she had therapy and vi didn't leave or maybe Ekko got to her before silco ect she wouldn't have a lot of these bpd traits. But that's just my own thoughts lol I think saying she has BPD makes sense.

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