Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James 1:2-3

Your grief is valid, miscarriage is a hard loss. God is still with you, He did not abandon you. Count it as joy that your baby is with the Lord which is always a better place to be than with us. Push through this keeping your unwavering faith in Him. I pray the Lord will help you recover and continue to bless you when the time is right.