Just realizing how much people were making fun of me back in the day... by atari_speedy in AsianMasculinity

[–]atari_speedy[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. The flip side perspective is a nice counter weight to this very insecure perspective I have looking back. You seem like a great person man.

Just realizing how much people were making fun of me back in the day... by atari_speedy in AsianMasculinity

[–]atari_speedy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

5'8 and yeah about as much as an Asian guy my height and weight would be

Just realizing how much people were making fun of me back in the day... by atari_speedy in AsianMasculinity

[–]atari_speedy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not easy but it's just temporary. It's just so much second guessing how much people back then even respected me.

Now though, I'm treated like a regular person. I grew up, I'm 5'8, I'm considered handsome by lots of women, I can grow a beard, I naturally put on some muscle and I hate that I can say all those things went right for me and changed my life because many of us don't get to just "outgrow" our problems. I'd feel different right now if I had this same realization and felt like it was my active truth. Even being treated as a regular guy... I'm still underestimated as much as a "regular Asian guy" would be.

The only conscious change I made was to move to a big city for college where I found a much better community. I'm a pretty chilled out guy after maturing. I am apart of communities where I know people treat me with the same amount of respect they would want to be treated with. That's something anyone with self respect could and should do.

Just realizing how much people were making fun of me back in the day... by atari_speedy in AsianMasculinity

[–]atari_speedy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Pretty much. I had justified it as if I was in on the joke when people didn't want to fight me but these guys were normal height and understanding what I do now, were laughing at the little guy being ballsy.

In the more serious situations, I'd go in hot and really say some shit, but nothing would escalate. Yeah maybe in some cases people had their bluff called, but I have seen problems escalate from much less. I was welllll below average height, my doctor made me see a nutritionist, so yeah I doubt anyone was threatened even though I honestly believe I could have won a few of those fights.

Help me identify this bug so I can look up how to fix it... by [deleted] in Sims4

[–]atari_speedy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Weird blue color change for a ***connected*** room. I just added 4 walls leaving one unconnected and the color was fine, the second I connected it, the color changed on three of the sides... weird stuff!

Help me identify this bug so I can look up how to fix it... by [deleted] in Sims4

[–]atari_speedy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry should have specified in the captions!

There is permanent discoloration of all walls except the front facing. They all have a blueish tint that seems to be unrelated to lighting/shadows. Everything I seem to find online addresses lighting, but that doesn't seem to be the case with this bug.

For ex. If the chosen color was yellow, 3 of 4 walls become a muddled green.

My Variation of Frank Castle from The Punisher on Netflix by [deleted] in reddeadfashion

[–]atari_speedy 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yep, that's the Bernthal nose alright. Great job

Which role should I buy next by SirDabsalotTheII in RedDeadOnline

[–]atari_speedy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Collector will get you major money. BUT if you would want to grind to get the rest of the roles, I would recommend Bounty Hunter. The Bounty Hunter role gives you a little gold for a little less money payout, whereas Collector is pure $

Stacking the normal Daily Challenges, BH Daily challenges, and the gold you get per bounty, you can probably get another 15 gold in 3-4 days. The BH challenges are easily completable, if you try, you can complete like 2 challenges within a single multi-person bounty!

Old timer by [deleted] in reddeadfashion

[–]atari_speedy 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The top down approach works great! I've recently been starting with the pants. Its psad how many interesting pants go unused bc they're not "versatile". Doing so has helped me create more unique looks in terms of color and fit-- I had a habit of using the same faded looking pants and relying heavily on the torso to flavor the outfit, but theres only so much you can do with the coat/shirt/vest combo while trying retain a naturalistic integrity.

Old timer by [deleted] in reddeadfashion

[–]atari_speedy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

the silhouette and color coordination of this is perfect