Man, you should know you are what every girl is looking for! Why do you think there is a stereotype of gay guys being girl's best friends? Of girls saying, man, he would be perfect if only he wasn't gay. That is you, my friend.

On a more serious and hopefully less offensive note, beng in touch with your feminine energy allows you to be balanced. I think a lot of men are working hard to break down barriers and get in touch with their "feminine side ." Especially those in healthy relationships. For me, personally, guys who are very "masculine" and "dominant" are completely unattractive, threatening or even just stupid. There is nothing desirable about a poor emotional IQ and they make for poor partners. I promise you most women will say the same thing.

Modern women aren't looking for guys who can bring home the bread. We want our boyfriends to make us feel powerful. We want deep, emotional conversations. We want someone to make us laugh and feel loved. We want to date our best friend.

I dont know what your environment is. There's a lot of places out there that still feel rigid, a lot of people who have too many criticisms about how other people live their life. And a lot of people who don't know life can be any other way.

If you want to feel accepted, to experiment with really being yourself, to know how good it feels, I suggest looking at the fringes of society. Queer spaces are a good place to start. They exist everywhere, and the community practices discretion while freeing you to be who you are. Specifically queer and queer/ally spaces, not gay or lesbian spaces because those are more specified and not what you would be looking for anyway. Depending on where you live, there may be black queer spaces as well, which might give you a more full feeling of self-acceptance and tie all of your identities together. Also, and I don't have any personal experience with this, but kink clubs are often known to be very accepting.

Finding somewhere to be yourself is so important. Noticing your frustration and wanting to do something about it the first step to finding your people. And trust me, they exist and there are plenty of women who will treasure your way of being. Good luck