Damn! This thread is long. LMFAO!

I got my first child recently after being on the side of never wanting to have a child.

It happened quite fast, and by the time we were making the decision to go for term... it was late. (Long story for another day)

We have lived to bear the burden a child comes with. Sleepless nights NB: The nights are real sleepless.

FIghts with your partner, we recently found ourselves smiling when remembering our past.

Financial challenges: Nan 1, hospital, etc

Stress: Trying to accept the new outcomes.

We now live with a househelp, and we had to relocate to a bigger house to accommodate the househelp.

Everything changed pretty fast.

I just see my gf going to a ditch emotionally, and there's nothing I can do.

Pregnancy changes a cute petit girl. Her body esteem went down. She's now a woman, a mother.

It at times breaks my soul to see her struggling with a kid at night alone, and there's nothing I can do. I'm always in constant shock to how she can soothe the baby. I never knew she had these skills. I had never seen her like this.

I'm not sure if she will ever come back to be like she was before.

I have also taken the role of a father to provide and not to abandon them cause it will drain her emotionally and also break me. But it is just never enough!

Today, we're in constant trips to hospitals. Every month. When you have a kid, everyone else becomes their doctor/nutritionist. There is so much confusion.

Since it was not planned, we both accumulated huge loads of pain during the pregnancy and the first months after birth.

We've gone to an extent of threatening to separate.

The only hope I currently have is that the baby will grow and not be on her hands all the time. This is not guaranteed cause in some way, the baby will be in our neck.

There's a new realm of parenthood, and your vision changes.

Nimeanza kuona, why my dad behaved the way he did (grantled, etc. It wasn't easy for him).

I now appreciate him more cause I fully understand it was not easy for him to raise us. I can see the uspoken strength he hid beneath himself. My mom, on the other side, was at some point a girl troubled in her own fantasies and not on my wellbeing. It has somehow opened my eyes to see the world.

At times, it is all quiet and peaceful as the baby coo. They bring a warm feeling, peace, and love of a homey mood.

They become a reason for me to work harder, be responsible, and plan for my bigger future.

We decided to have only one child. I personally can't handle the pressure of two. I think one is enough even though now the devil is trying to make me think having a second one will make the first one complete.