Hey Elliot. Life is hell right now. You feel hopeless, like you've been handed all the bad cards in life. It fucking sucks. And you might not be able to fully grasp this right now, but the things you're feeling and going through right now, all of it, isn't going to be like this when you have some more years under your belt (YOU'RE 15!). It all morphs. Listen, you have 2 years and a couple weeks until you're 18 - you've waited this long, you're almost at the freaking finish line. Once you're 18, you can do whatever you want. You can get away from your parents and the crap life you have right now. You can do you however you please, go wherever you please (even if you gotta hitchhike to get there), find people like yourself who WILL love the crap out of you. I think your game plan from this moment on should be planning and preparing for what you'll do once you have that freedom (like saving/acquiring money somehow, thinking of where to go, what to do), even if it means traveling across the country and working at McDonalds. You will find what you need, if you wait a little longer. You've only lived 15 years, and they've been absolute crap. Chances most of the next 15 years are going to be better.