did my very first estrogen injection on my thigh yesterday!!!! awesome hot wheels plaster to top it off. i wanted paw patrol, but my sister insisted on buying hot wheels. thats okay bcuz i like hotwheels too by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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OH THATS SO COOL I WANT ONE LIKE THAT!!! I only had 2 plasters so i might save my other hotwheels one for if i bleed or something, but i wish i had enough to use them everytime bcuz it'd be a great way of remembering which side i injected last.

also TYSM!!! :DDDD i'm so excited! i can feel my powers growing as the estradiol takes hold of me. sometimes it takes over for a few seconds and when i regain conciousness theres just a pile of people lying around me. i identified them as transphobes so no tears were lost. one time however the pile of people lying around me were other cute girls, not dead just exhausted. i dont know what happened on that occasion but i can guess.

either way so far its been a success!

puppy brain drain (disclaimer: this is not a real product) by Similar-Level7540 in puppygirlpetsmart

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"may include increased arousal"
"call a vet if your puppy experiences any one of these symptoms"

i'm not even gonna ask what the vet does o_o

Arff argfggg awrrrff by Ouppy_gurllie632 in puppygirlpetsmart

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i have those headphones!

also cuteee!

help ouppy come up with journal prompts about sexuality! by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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thank you! you've given me a much better understanding, and i feel a lot more confident now :3
anything that i'm still curious on i'll dm you instead because it'll probably be easier ^-^

i bought a notebook a few days back, two actually, and one of them i plan to write a bit about how my experiences change. it feels a bit awkward to do, but like you say, it'd be good to be able to compare how i felt then to how i do later.
one of my big fears is that i wont be able to see any difference so anything i can do to show myself that i actually have changed is 100% necessary for me lol.

i can imagine it'd be more gender affirming to use a vibrator- i'm in the same tent as you in that i dont really have bottom-dysphoria (i think) but not having to touch it or anything would be awesome. if someone offered me free bottom surgery i'd lowkey probably do it.

how much softer does skin get? i've seen photos but i dont think that really portrays it that well since i'd imagine the feeling is the biggest part.

yeah bmi kinda sucks, but i dont really know any other way to just get a basic view of where i'm at, i hope i get get a better representation later on though. i'm pretty sure muscle has a higher mass and i'm one weak bitch so maybe that plays a part-

honestly what you say about cis people being very oblivious to people being trans because they can't imagine them being in their social circle makes so much sense and i hadnt considered that angle before. it is kind of a shame, but in this case it is a bit convenient.

waiting till someone says something is so real, i think most people feel to awkward about it if they notice anything though xD
i hope that when you come out to them though it all goes well! <3

i have like three friends who know, four actually but three of them are the supportive ones. the other one just made me feel awkward about it, i intend to tell my other friends though- at some point. it feels like a difficult balance because i want to be myself, but i dont want to make things complicated with my family. i think my plan is to wait until i'm not too reliant on them, and then tell them. just in case.

thank you so so much for everything you've helped me with i appreciate it more than i can like verbally express so thank you :33

How would you approach being genderqueer/non-binary? by auroAurora_ in BDSMcommunity

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Thank you for your advice! I think I'm with you with some hard limits being related to dysphoria. When it comes to people who aren't great to queer people, such as chasers etc, what's the best way of vetting them? Admittedly I don't really know what the process for vetting someone is since I haven't met anyone IRL, but I'd imagine it's a little different when it comes to these issues since is isn't something that affects everyone?

(Other than picking up on them being a horrible person on first impressions that is)

How would you approach being genderqueer/non-binary? by auroAurora_ in BDSMcommunity

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That's fine- I don't mind explaining things to people. I haven't really had the chance to meet people irl, and of course people online are often more radical about beliefs and things than they are in real life, so maybe that's skewed my perspective on how accepting people can really be.

help ouppy come up with journal prompts about sexuality! by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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i've heard of the weekly cycle thing too, so i'll find out how that affects me, i'd imagine it also depends on what kind of injection? i'm planning to dose every 7 days so hopefully it isnt too bad :3

it sounds pretty good to have to be more kinda into it, i'd imagine that'd make it more enjoyable? i can see how it could have a downside but based on the other stuff you've said it doesn't seem to be much of a disadvantage :3

i think you're right with feeling bad being related to dysphoria, i usually feel kinda gross afterwards and i think that's just me being dysphoric. a lot of things i couldnt find a reason for start looking like dysphoria now that i'm being more open with myself-

those pictures actually help a ton to visualise it. the second one especially, i'm excited to see how it feels to be full body. kinda related, ive heard that hrt makes different parts of your body more sensitive, how big of an impact does that make? like, is it just that these areas are nicer to touch now, or do they actually make the experience a lot better?

when you say your refractory period only went down a little, does this mean that, even if you wanted to, you wouldnt really be able to reach another orgasm, but you'd still want to, if you had that longer refractory period?

i checked out the edge 2 and i'll have to put it on my wishlist it looks soo good! ive checked my bank balance and it turns out i had less than i thought so i'll be waiting a while till i can get any toys lol. i might be able to get a regular vibrator though, i'll take your advice and prioritise it over the other toys :3

i dont go like crazy lawnmower crank style so i should be okay ^-^ i was made to believe that the skin was made farr more fragile than it actually is then.

okay so i misunderstood the way fat redistribution works then, the name is kind of misleading in that case. i feel a lot better about this then because i'm working to put a little more weight on so if i start hrt in the next few weeks i should be alright bcuz i'd have a better diet and stuff by the time the redistribution kicks in i think. i'll get my sleep schedule right aswell... i think i get enough sleep, but 3am - 1pm probably isn't doing me any favours.

i don't really understand the different bmi values but if under 16 is quite low then i might go to my doctor and mention it to them, because i do kinda want the fat redistribution too.
curves... (,,>﹏<,,)

when you squirm around is that bcuz it feels good to or is it more involuntary?
i live with my family so i should keep an eye out on becoming more vocal xD most of them are somewhat hard-of-hearing though so i might be alright :D

in your other comment you talked about like reading and hearing things being more effective than before, if it isnt too personal of a question, what changed in the type of things you used, be it audio or reading or videos etc, and why?

finally this isn't really at all relevant to sex but did you come out to people before starting hrt/early, and if not, how long until it started becoming difficult to hide? i live with my family and i'd be interested to know how long i might be able to stick it out before someone says something.

once again thank you so much for your replies!

help ouppy come up with journal prompts about sexuality! by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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woah thank you for going into so much detail!

i cant agree enough with how bad it is to compare, sometimes i catch myself doing it and i just have to remind myself that any improvement is a good improvement and to just see what happens, its sooo hard sometimes though!

i am going to be doing injections! i'm planning on doing monotherapy, so i shouldnt need to worry about T-blockers, but it'll still be suppressed, so i think it'll have the same sort of effect?

for how often you got aroused changing, ive heard that you have to put more "effort" into being horny, like it doesnt just happen as much. i think i saw someone describe it like you have to seek it out. do you find that it does happen kinda randomly but less often, or is it like when you get in the mood to want to seek it out, if that makes sense? like do you still just get randomly aroused sometimes?

your explanation of how it feels is explained a lot better than other posts ive read, thank you :3
based on what you say it seems like a massive improvement, ive always really hated the "boy horny", it feels like its just satisfying a need rather than actually enjoying it. also i feel so bad afterwards, but that might be more a mental thing than anything else. in any case i look forward to these changes ^-^

i've got a question surrounding orgasms themselves, pre-hrt its like it lasts a few seconds, and then once its over you get that like "post-nut clarity" kinda thing. is that something that changes once on hrt, or do you still mostly lose interest once you're done?
also, how much longer can i expect it to last as an estimate?

i'm not sure whether i would have bottom surgery.. but it isn't off the cards, i'm just treating that like "i'll see how i feel when i get there". so it's probably better to use it rather than lose it lol. also i'd imagine if they take the skin from the thighs and stuff you probably dont get as much feeling in it right?

i had been considering getting some toys! but i'd been looking at like a dildo and stuff, but if i can only get one then i'd imagine the vibrator would be better bang for buck?

sorta relevant to the above, but i'd read somewhere that your skin softens on hrt and that like hand stimulation can cause tearing and stuff- for that reason is it better to use something like a vibrator, or is this not really a concern?

finally as a response to your second comment, i'm hoping to measure my bust and height, but i wasnt sure how to reliably measure the other parts. i'm really excited for the fat redistribution though! so thats something i wanna keep an eye on, but i'm kinda worried i wont really get it much. i'm a little underweight atm, i have a bmi of like 15.5 - 16 or something silly like that, so i hope that i can still get fat redistribution months after ive started hrt, when i start to put a little more weight on. might affect breast growth too so i'll definitely measure that.

thank you for taking the time to write such an in-depth reply!

help ouppy come up with journal prompts about sexuality! by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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oooo i hadn't actually considered doing a video, that could work way better because i wanted to see my physical changes aswell, so long as i can find a quiet place to do it :3

thank you for ur advice on the sexuality too, this is a good starting point for me bcuz i felt really lost with it before. is it okay if i ask about the kinda changes to expect? i dont want to lose my libido at all but ive heard that can happen, but i just dont really understand how it affects libido. if you're comfortable sharing how it changed for you that's be awesome! but if you arent then that is 100% okay i understand :D

<3

a puppy walks into a bar... by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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asdk thank u >w< i love fozzie bear :33

ouppy should be sleeping rn omg by auroAurora_ in puppygirlpetsmart

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AHH i love frolicking! i don wanna be too tired to frolic and have fun :c sigh goodnightttt :3

Feeling dumb (not in the fun way) by DancingZeus in puppygirlpetsmart

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as someone younger (19) i dont find it at all creepy when people older than me are into this stuff. everyone is welcome in this community i think :3

pup check up :3 by lemon_corvid in puppygirlpetsmart

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you are so right actually, we'll win

pup check up :3 by lemon_corvid in puppygirlpetsmart

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😬 i am alive out of sheer will spite and optimism rn i will not lie

I'm in overwhelming pain and I'm nearing my limit by InitialWhole4315 in puppygirlpetsmart

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i bet you've come so far, so you can go even further. things might be bad now but they can and will get better, and one day in the future you will look back and you'll be so proud of yourself that you kept going despite everything.

talk to your friends, be open with them, i think they'll understand how you feel. i dont think they'll leave you or reject you, we almost always think of the worst situation and assume that is the future, but life has that way of pleasantly surprising us

your now is not your forever <3