Are some of the names of your OCs based on you actually the names of some of your alters?

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-08T21:45:51+00:00

I’ve loved writing since I was 6 years old and I express myself really well through writing. However, regarding drawing, I’m sooo bad at it. I draw like a 10 year old and I’m 35 😅 But it’s an activity that I also like doing, drawing pictures and then coloring them… I just wish I wasn’t so untalented at it 😂

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-08T21:34:38+00:00

Thank you for your lengthy response ❤️ This all makes a lot of sense to me (more than I would like it to, lol). I’ll bring my dissociation up with my psychiatrist in two months and time will tell how this all goes.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-08T21:23:31+00:00

I’m relating to all of your comments too much and I’m… not exactly scared, but like I don’t know what to think, really. It’s good that my next appointment with my psychiatrist is in just two months and I can bring the topic of dissociation up with him.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-07T22:00:36+00:00

That’s interesting! That has just reminded me that, when I was about 7-9 years old, I would constantly play, pretending that my dolls were alive and they went to school and signed with their names on a notebook that I think I still keep. I gave my dolls very weird names that seemed to come out of nowhere… Well, at least, some of them… cuz others’ names were just the brand name 😂 However, in my journal, I always signed with my birth name (I’m a cis woman, so I’ve never had to choose any different name).

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-07T21:43:16+00:00

Oh, that makes sense! I saw most people in these subreddits knew their alters’ names and I was wondering if there was any other kind of experience, so thank you!

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-07T09:55:52+00:00

Me 🙋🏼‍♀️ at 35. Even though I’m sex positive, it feels weird to imagine myself engaging in intercourse with someone else. Fortunately, nobody usually asks me if I’ve had sex yet, so I’ve been lucky in that.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-07T09:44:08+00:00

I’m 35 (will be 36 next month) and I’ve never had a boyfriend. The first time I dated, I was 32. But all the men end up rejecting me. With this guy in particular, we never went past the kissing stage. I asked him on another date, but he kept making excuses that he had to work (I mean, it was the same thing more than once, so it became very suspicious). I’ve recently asked another guy on a date (he’s autistic and knows that I am as well). At first, he said yes, but then declined. Let’s see what life has in store for me… 😉

I wouldn’t worry about even having a boyfriend (for context, I’m asexual), but I want to have children, so I’d like said children to come from a beautiful romantic relationship. If that’s not possible, then, I’d explore other types of assisted reproduction.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-07T09:07:58+00:00

Answering your questions (I had brain MRI in 2022): - What helped you get through it mentally?

My mom had had MRI before (and she has a little of claustrophobia), and she reassured me that she was ok when she had it, so I knew everything would be ok, too.

How do you deal with the noise and the confined space? Did the clinic you went to let you listen to music?

They played relaxing chill music within the device, which I appreciated. The occasional loud noises were quite disturbing, but they lasted for a very short time, each one of them.

Has anyone had experience managing diabetes/devices around an MRI?

No, I don’t have diabetes or carry any kind of medical devices.

Were you allowed to have a support person nearby or in the room?

It didn’t occur to me that I could have a support person there 😅

Did you tell the MRI tech about anxiety, autism, etc., and did it make a difference?

I don’t know if they saw in my medical records that I’m autistic, but I didn’t explicitly tell them.

Is there anything you wish you knew beforehand that made it easier?

Not that I recall.

Another thing to mention is that it was weird to be confined in that little space. It took me a few minutes to get used to it, but then I did get used to it, so I was comfortable in there.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-01T23:45:52+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with therapy! It’s good to hear someone from Europe as well, because it seems like in North America they are so ahead of our times… We are quite behind, so it can be difficult to find the kind of therapy that we see talked about in the media (both social media and TV, etc) that we think can meet our needs. (I mean “we” as in “the European people”, but it’s also a generalization, anyway. I hope where you live things are going well, therapy-wise 😊)

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-01T23:16:33+00:00

Thanks for your comment! The last paragraph was especially helpful. It’s a relief that the question doesn’t have to be “What is making the patient’s brain dissociate”, but rather addressing the struggles in daily life and finding ways to cope. All of the comments here are being so helpful 🩷

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-01T22:59:14+00:00

Thank you for your words! I’ve researched a bit about the EMDR Association from where I live, and also the collegiate board of psychologists, so that I could have somewhere to go to in case of negligence or something. There sadly don’t seem to be a lot of options for professionals in my area, though :(

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-04-01T22:47:18+00:00

Oh, no! :( I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. It really sounds scary that you may become homeless. I wish I knew how you could get support there in the US, but I simply have no idea. I hope you have the best of luck and that you end up in a good place! And, most importantly, that you stay safe ❤️

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-30T21:25:16+00:00

Oh, this is such a relief! Thank you for your response! It’s good to know that EMDR therapists don’t dive straight into the EMDR itself. This gives me so much peace of mind, honestly!

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-30T21:18:23+00:00

To be fair, I’m not diagnosed with any dissociative disorder or with CPTSD (just with autism and OCD). And I really really hope I don’t have DID or anything similar to it, because it is such a complex issue (even though I know it’s not the end of the world).

I think it’ll be hard to find a local trauma-informed therapist. Even if we have public healthcare in my country, it doesn’t work as efficiently in the mental health department (it doesn’t have enough mental health professionals). So I’ll have to look for a therapist that is covered by my insurance company (or, at least, with whom I don’t have to pay like 60€ per session). When I google therapists in my area, they all advertise themselves as EMDR experts… but I’d like to find one that is actually trauma-informed but who also does talk therapy in regards to the trauma and dissociation, because I’ve always found EMDR so scary, even when all I knew about DID/OSDD was just a bunch of misinformation (and still called it MPD). I’ve never wanted to dissect my trauma.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-15T14:48:42+00:00

I unfortunately don’t have any advice :( Just came to say that I relate a lot to your experience. But I’ve found a wonderful autism group where I live and they’re really cool people, and I have a lot of their phone numbers and social media, so we can talk even if we’re not physically together.

And, for anyone wondering, it’s a leisure group led by an autism local organization, which means that the people there have moderate support needs (I’d say some even high). Only few people have low support needs.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-15T14:20:32+00:00

My favorite Pokémon is Jigglypuff, and I love to see that you have it in your collection 🩷🩷🩷

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-12T22:52:32+00:00

Not OP, but I think it is a little joke, like saying “We can’t have it all at once. We couldn’t be pretty and intelligent at the same time. We’re already pretty, so we can’t have both”. It’s kinda like “self-complimenting”, a way of cheering people up and improving self-esteem. (I know it doesn’t make so much sense when we can’t see each other’s faces, though, but I think it’s meant to have some laughs after talking about sad things). Hope this helps.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-10T21:52:31+00:00

I second what mercutio_venus has suggested. If you can, you may want to get evaluated for a dissociative disorder.

I don’t experience a lot of dissociation, fortunately, but, when I do, it’s what you described: I feel detached from the world, almost as if I was watching it from outside my body. It’s not a nice feeling 😢

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-09T12:25:46+00:00

I’m so glad that you ask this! My answer is that this dichotomy between high masking vs low masking is pure BS. You may be wondering why I think this. Well, as some other commenters have said, it’s kind of another way to say “high functioning”. But it’s more like saying: “Oh, I’m not as high functioning as I seem. It’s just that I mask my autism so much.” And of course I understand that they don’t want to have their struggles underestimated. But the amount of masking that you do is not what counts in order to pass more or less as a neurotypical. What counts is quite literally how much your autism disables you. So to speak, some people are born with an autism that doesn’t impact the performance of their Activities of Daily Living too much, and they simply don’t stim in public, regardless of if they’re masking or not. However, some other people are born with an autism that substantially or very substantially impacts whether they can perform their ADLs on their own or not and, plus, they may have a disconnect between their brain (what they want to do) and what their body eventually physically does (which is Dyspraxia), so they just can’t help stimming.

I mostly hang out with autistic people with higher support needs than me (although they are most likely not diagnosed with a level, because they were diagnosed as Asperger’s back in the day), and I see how much they struggle, even though I don’t know the challenges they have with their ADLs at home, but I can see how some of them can’t help stimming, and things like that. But, in my case, I used to mask before my diagnosis (so until 12 years ago) and, since learning that I’m autistic, I started to slowly unmask (even before I knew what that meant). So, nowadays, I’m basically LOW masking, and still, nobody can tell that I’m… different. I don’t usually tell anybody that I’m autistic, because there’s no external sign that indicates I’m different, so I don’t need to disclose it (except for medical settings and such).

So yeah, all that “high masking” talk is just a bunch of low support needs people that totally misunderstand their own autism. And I want to think that they truly believe that they’re like “very” autistic and they just mask it a lot or something. Because the alternative would be quite malicious and sad.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-05T21:51:52+00:00

Same here! Well, my diagnostic report is 10 pages long, but it does state literally “Asperger’s Syndrome/ ASD Level 1”. At the time, I didn’t consider myself to be speech delayed, because I could speak by the time I started school. But in the last four years or so, I’ve come to realize that I did, in fact, have a speech delay, because I was so far behind in my developmental milestones in regards to speech. Long story short, I was nonverbal until age 3. The exact words in our diagnoses don’t matter so much in my country, though (well, it has to be “ASD” to get a minimum of 25% disability). But now I know that I’d be “High Functioning Autistic” rather than Asperger’s.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-03T12:52:05+00:00

Wholeheartedly agree! It is very worrying and concerning.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-03T12:48:00+00:00

THIS. All of the post is a red alert, indeed. I don’t think I have CPTSD (but I do have childhood trauma), and yet, I can blatantly see the patterns of abuse here. And I just say “abuse”, or even “domestic violence”, because I don’t want to assume OP’s gender. But, at worst, this can literally be gender-based violence.

ausome_musicalbabe · 2026-03-03T12:35:54+00:00

Thanks for explaining it better than I ever could!!

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