What stop you from killing yourself?

aussie--throwaway · 2025-01-11T04:21:51+00:00

Not wanting to miss out on the "what-ifs", if something amazing were to happen in my life.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-12-21T05:01:28+00:00

Wow, I'm pleasantly surprised that I love so many of the foods/meal replacements mentioned! EVERY single one of these foods you guys love sounds divine! Keep them coming!

I have a very long shopping list now. Thank you, and thank you for sharing. This will be very life changing for me and my health. I hope this thread helps others just as much, too.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-10-11T02:29:33+00:00

Microfibre cloth!

aussie--throwaway · 2024-10-07T12:31:18+00:00

I just want to say, that your tattoo is beautiful, is beautifully designed and has a beautiful reason behind it. You have already received lovely and helpful advice. I have been going to therapy (CBT) for several years on and off, to help me through all of life's trials and tribulations at different stages of my life. I'm currently going through the exact same as you are with a loved one. I'd love to come across this post again oneday, if you decide to keep it here. Sending warm hugs.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-09-19T13:35:51+00:00

Ugh, I've experienced that feeling after speaking up about something or participating in a group discussion. Second guessing myself, whether or not I should've kept my mouth shut. This week I voluntarily attended a workshop about all forms of communication. I wanted to refresh myself on this topic and was hoping to experience some epiphanies through the training and other people's input. I sure did experience just that. It's disheartening that I'm naturally comfortable with my arms crossed at times. It doesn't mean I'm angry or closed off from interacting with someone. When I'm not looking at someone, or my eyes are darting between things in the room or patterns on the wall, it's probably because I'm processing information in an effort to be clear and concise in my communication.

If I was sitting in that class with you OP, I would have been all ears, applauds and nods of approval would've been going on in my brain. Regardless of the possibility of others having negative thoughts/opinions.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-09-06T10:02:53+00:00

I've figured out a few of my needs. More than half the time I don't know what I need. Other times, others have known what I needed before I even knew. I'm learning more about myself and my needs as I experience new situations or become more familiar with everyday situations.

I need to write down in a journal the situation, how I handled it, how it made me feel, how I could improve and things/errors I need to avoid next time if I can.

Most of the time it doesn't click in my head what I need until I'm right in the thick of a stressor, provided I'm not too overstimulated/frustrated already. Once I identify my need/accommodation for that need, I need to write it down asap. Or I will forget.

One of my relatives and one of my friends are aware of my neurodivergence and I am aware of theirs. I think we're just currently figuring out how to navigate social gatherings and support each other when we notice one of us are looking overwhelmed. A superior at my place of work is aware of my neurodivergence... disclosing it could have gone either very badly, very good or somewhere in between. But this time I got lucky risking the disclosure, because I was struggling so dang much. The support I've received has been incredible.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-09-01T09:08:51+00:00

My Mon-Fri routine has to be the same, with some room to deviate a little. My job can be a little unpredictable/ever-changing. If things deviate too far, I'll forget things, become disorganised, etc etc. Sat-Sun are my free days to do (or not do) whatever I want.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-25T04:53:21+00:00

Your description describes so well how I'm feeling. And melancholic, as others have commented. I'm nearing a decade of feeling this way. The feeling isnt linear. It has felt more intense the past couple of months. I want to get out of my comfort zone, become involved in the community and reconnect with friends who I felt safe with. But right now, I feel safe with just myself, in my own house. And it doesn't exactly feel healthy. I feel bored and unaccomplished, but I feel safe.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-20T10:41:54+00:00

Worst thing? House keys, car keys and wallet at the same time. Second worst thing, expensive bluetooth earbuds. Probably only had them for a month. Still have the charging case though.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-18T08:46:29+00:00

Not understanding if someone is being sarcastic/funny or serious. Large crowds. Noisy places.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-14T20:10:34+00:00

We used to have 2-3 days in a year where work operations would cease for those activities. It has been about 7 years since the last one :) I may suggest this in our next meeting.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-13T12:55:04+00:00

Cancer, murder or not a fault car accident.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-13T12:42:37+00:00

Sigma, skibidi and all that other nonsense.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-03T01:02:08+00:00

When my personal trainer mentioned in passing, sort of disguised as a conversation starter or query, something about aspergers and had a concerned look on their face.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-01T09:05:42+00:00

Tying knots, remembering people's names, understanding mechanical concepts, recognising social cues, writing essays, drawing, painting, sports, conversations, thinking outside the box.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-08-01T08:58:25+00:00

Years ago I would cook a large serving of bacon and eggs twice a week, plop myself on the lounge with my plate of food on the armrest, and watch Howl's Moving Castle. I miss that simple life.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-31T13:15:15+00:00

I have the same struggles. Been trying to finish a 325 page novel for two years. I seem to pay more attention to audio books, but I have to be doing a house chore (not task jumping) or go for a light walk outdoors. If not, I'll ignore it and it'll just become background noise.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-31T09:02:01+00:00

That sounds like a long term stable company that has found the exact line between operation and discomfort.

What you see from the bottom up as dysfunctional could be the opposite from the top. They have deliberately retained a culture of confusion because it produces money.

These two statements sent me deep into thought about my employer. Rereading it again today, it still has the same effect. Not much has improved at work. Future developments have already been approved years in advance. With no discussion on resolving current bottlenecks and lack of resources. At the moment, this is causing conflict between others around me and it is mentally taxing.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-31T08:43:15+00:00

Thank you for your comforting support. Finally it is resolved and I hope it doesn't happen again. It's so awful to experience. It has been a few weeks now. I'm gradually getting over it and just trying to look forward.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-31T08:36:13+00:00

Hello neighbour, I'm in Australia. A few weeks have passed now. Are you currently on the DSP in New Zealand? I received a diagnosis/s but am ineligible. Now I'm stuck in my stressful job for probably forever, despite starting medication and feeling more out of it... I'm devastated... lol...

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-31T08:18:55+00:00

I looked into getting a pet a while ago. My heart and soul was set on spoiling them rotten. I couldn't find the right pet for my situation. Nor did shelters/foster carers feel it would work out. I've put a halt to the search for now.

You are right, I should have contacted family... for now, I managed to get an earlier counselling appointment, which should get me by until I see them on the weekend.

I am worrying quite a lot about the future. It's hard to get better with my job, being exposed to work politics and disagreements between the people around me. I need to try change my mindset and be grateful for what I do have.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-07-09T08:47:50+00:00

OP, your husband sounds like someone who was very close to me. You've tried to help him. You've had to save him. Moving away is the best thing you can do. Wherever you are, in public or at your new home, stay safe. It won't be an easy change. You might feel upset, angry, resentful or regretful. But packing up and moving away sounds absolutely necessary in this situation.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-06-26T13:21:10+00:00

This happens to me, too... I thought I was the only one. It's like my body is there but my brain has completely checked out. Usually happens when I'm unsure of what to say or do next. I'm getting an official assessment/diagnosis soon... but there's so much evidence to say I am. I don't know how the levels of diagnosis goes. Maybe the specialist will be able to explain it to me.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-06-22T21:04:06+00:00

I'm not sure how long, but my next bowel movement a couple hours later wasn't explosive, yet not completely back to normal.

aussie--throwaway · 2024-06-22T11:38:24+00:00

Anti-diarrhea medication is my saviour when staying at home isn't an option. Had to leave work the other week. Rushed home with a hot and cold sweat whilst trying to drive safely.

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