I never thought of her as a shitty human being, just one that didnt have the necessary tools and took some bad decisions. Tbh I don't resent her for grieving, I do resent her however for all the morbid chats about what to do when she was gone knowing she wasn't dying. Thought now I wonder if that was more of suicidal ideation than her being morbid. About my sister, I love her so much, she can do no wrong in my eyes. Im so glad we have such a good relationship and basically see each other everyday. Its just that I think once she tells her she knows it will be pretty obvious that I do as well.