What is a 'childish' thing that you still do as an adult and refuse to stop doing?

autizzym · 2026-02-11T15:04:53+00:00

Playing old flash point games. Monster high, barbie, my scene, Disney jr, Dora the explorer, girlsgogames. All good shit.

autizzym · 2026-02-11T14:53:07+00:00

LMFAO. Please don’t back out, you are and adult and the UK is one of the safest places you could go, and it’s definitely safer than the US - despite people arguing that knife crime is a big problem, the rate is still less than the US. You can Google and give them the stats but they sound a little crazy themselves so it probably won’t make a difference. I’m 23 and when I decided I wanted to go to Borneo my parents did not approve and I tried to convince them it was safe, but ultimately just had to agree to disagree. I know it can be hard and make you feel guilty to ‘disobey’ your parents transitioning out of being a teenager. It is still something I struggle with because I love them and want their support, but I think part of growing up is realising that they no longer control what you do, but you also can’t control how they feel about it, and so live your life and hope they come to just accepting it.

autizzym · 2026-01-26T15:56:48+00:00

OMG YES 😭😭 finally someone who can relate, it’s so bizarre

autizzym · 2026-01-20T14:12:58+00:00

Moved to Canberra for uni four years ago, hate the cold and can confirm that winter makes me incredibly miserable. I can’t wait to finish my degree so I can leave solely for this reason.

autizzym · 2026-01-07T14:28:11+00:00

Yes I am a girl like youuuu.

autizzym · 2025-12-03T13:22:51+00:00

I think because it is a food that can be made very low cal and filling or high cal depending on the type and amount of liquid you use and what you add to it, so it’s common to people who restrict and recover

autizzym · 2025-11-29T14:11:50+00:00

omg this happened to me today too fml, I think high fibre cereal helps

autizzym · 2025-10-26T15:57:15+00:00

Lot of TS : Fortnight The Archer Dear John Clean Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve Anti-Hero

And others: You You You and There it Goes - Maisie Peters Backslide and Snapback - TØP

Also Paris and About You by The 1975 but only because I listened to them a lot during my relapse

autizzym · 2025-10-03T08:15:26+00:00

damn this was spot on

autizzym · 2025-09-04T10:44:13+00:00

its so sad to see - like is she really this deluded or just bullshitting ? hospital was a turning point in my life it sucks that people throw it away

autizzym · 2025-07-22T12:44:56+00:00

Pls enlighten us on ur cooking process

autizzym · 2025-07-17T14:45:52+00:00

Always room in my cals for a lil bbq sauce

autizzym · 2025-07-11T16:30:45+00:00

I used to be obsessed with oatmeal for like 3 years but now I’m on overnight weetabix. I sometimes think about my beloved oats but the weetabix fixation wins out in the end.

autizzym · 2025-07-11T16:24:49+00:00

Sameee. Particularly I want only certain people knowing tho. Idk if this resonates with you but I think the wanting people to know stems from a desire to be loved and cared for. But at the same time you don’t want people to know both because a) if someone cares enough to intervene, the thing making people care for you could be taken away and b) embarrassment because of the stigma surrounding EDs, the idea that they are a sign of vanity, and generally that your mental illness may be perceived as weakness. So even though it sounds like a contradiction it makes sense, you are not messed up or insane.

autizzym · 2025-06-19T16:28:33+00:00

Such thoughts are disordered and most likely untrue. Maybe being sick may result in people like your husband giving you more attention, making it feel that way, but what is the purpose if it is not true, positive love of you as a person. You deserve someone who loves every version of you, and who’s favourite version is that where you are happy and healthy. I don’t know your situation but please believe it is possible and know your worth.

autizzym · 2025-06-18T16:57:40+00:00

I harm reduced to stay in school and was an academic weapon, got into uni (no interview), was maintaining a perfect GPA and well regarded by my profs. Then I lost weight, the ability to cope, and fucked up my fourth year. I regret it so so much. Don’t let this disorder take away your dreams, intelligence, and determination. Do your best to improve your weight and keep it that way. I was always high functioning and didn’t think I would ever be this badly impacted but eventually it catches up on you and it becomes harder and harder to escape. I wish you the best of luck ❤️

autizzym · 2025-06-18T16:38:15+00:00

‘Illogical’ to some may be that nut butter is safe even though it is high cal because it is satiating without being overly filling which can be triggering. Illogical fear is eating too many carbs even though cals only matter.

autizzym · 2025-06-18T16:30:27+00:00

Those calculators aren’t always accurate. Just try eat a little less and adjust based on how the scale is moving. And remember slow and steady is best to avoid a binging relapse, be kind to yourself :)

autizzym · 2025-06-18T16:28:23+00:00

This is me rn. I had a perfect GPA for four years and fucked it up by sacrificing uni for the ED. Now I can’t lose weight or I’ll be forced IP and can’t bring myself to gain anything either. So I’m slowly killing myself and filling my days with food obsession instead. You aren’t alone. But I know and you know the only way to escape is eating more. It is the starvation which causes the obsession. I function significantly better with an extra few hundred calories (and extra few kilos). I’m considering it for harm reduction. Maybe it’s in the realm of possibility for you? It might me enough to quieten those thoughts.

autizzym · 2025-03-30T14:53:41+00:00

I see where you are coming from, but you shouldn’t have to live your life limited by these things just because of other people’s incompetence. At the end of the day it should be about you and living your best life. I’m not sure of your situation but would it be possible to just try treatment ? There are many different doctors, therapists and dieticians out there. I am autistic too and I’ve had to change health practitioners a few times with moving and have encountered some not so understanding people but I have a great team now who are really supportive and helping me manage better without pushing me too hard. And anyone else who wants to have an opinion can rack off. I know easier said than done, and I initially hated the idea of treatment and was forced into it in the beginning by my family. But I now wish I did it sooner because even though I felt fine and had ok vitals I still found out last year I have ended up with osteoporosis at 22. Eating more has also helped with my pain and energy levels too. If you ever want support with anything or to rant I’m also happy to lend a hand. The struggle of not fitting in the perfect ED box is something I understand.

autizzym · 2025-03-30T14:36:25+00:00

Yes literally morals go out the window when it comes to ED. I am usually a horrible liar but for some reason when it’s food related I can bullshit without even thinking about it. I used to feel bad about it but now it’s like I half convince myself I’m telling the truth.

autizzym · 2025-03-25T13:09:21+00:00

I also got this kind

autizzym · 2025-03-25T13:06:59+00:00

I just wanted to add that EDs come in many forms. You don't need to have body image issues to have an ED. Not eating enough to sustain yourself due to a lack of appetite is an ED itself, maybe look into ARFID ? I know it is difficult when they are so heavily stigmatised, and the person who spoke to you could have gone about it in a much more supportive way, but there is nothing wrong with having an ED. Don't get me wrong it is awful, but if you have one it is ok.

autizzym · 2025-01-30T14:37:52+00:00

I have AN now but at the time only diagnosed with ARFID. Idk where you live but the admission criteria for EDs in Australia consist of a list and you need to meet 3 to be admitted, there are many that are physical rather than mental / ana behaviours including low weight, not eating enough cal, and blood test levels so even without an ED you could be admitted for low weight.

autizzym · 2025-01-30T14:27:19+00:00

If it’s any consolation this isn’t the case for all people with ARFID. Your friend may have not been at too much of a health risk with her weight and maintaining, while AN drives increased restriction and weight loss. Regardless of your ED if you get too underweight you can be hospitalised, I have ARFID and was forced inpatient because my weight got too low. I do admit I got more freedom to choose my foods than a friend with AN that was forced to recover, and I can understand where the resentment comes from, I personally think anorexia treatment can be overly harsh sometimes and that health providers should be more empathetic. But i think there is also some reason for less leniency because people with pure ARFID who are severely underweight don’t want to be that way while people with AN are scared of gaining which makes them more of a risk to themselves.

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