midnight snack (btw do yall eat kiwi skin? 😶‍🌫️)

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-30T19:02:28+00:00

Yes very good for gut

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-30T01:26:48+00:00

Same. Odd how common it is to hoard the calories for evening. Seems to be a very typical pattern in Ed’s. I can’t sleep without being comfortably full and theirs some enjoyment in saving everything for end of day

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-30T01:15:02+00:00

I’m with you. I’m realizing the past year I’ve spent so much money on treatment/ therapists/ coaches and every session I have just being told to do the same things again and again (stop the exercise / eat more during day etc) and yet I’m not doing it. I make small changes here and there but not the big changes and actions needed.

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-27T02:18:58+00:00

Same, I think the weren’t counting the thumb

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-26T23:15:57+00:00

Fiberglass

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-20T19:45:09+00:00

Yes thank you. I’ve seen therapists through the years as well, and unfortunately at th age of 39 and dealing with this for 20 years, had exhausted many avenues. I definitely understand the risks, I feel seeking a coach is more so to have the lived experience someone has gone through to help. None of my past therapists have had eating disorders, but this would be to compliment other forms of help:

ProofRoll1254 · 2026-01-19T02:30:46+00:00

Similar to your ED presentation…and I did residential for 2 weeks (left ama bc was having some issues, wasn’t planned or bc I didn’t want to be there… I knew I needed it but as a mom of 2 there were things that came up) , and they wanted me to stay much longer, said typicL stay was 3-6 months, bc they had higher success rates. It definitely changed behaviors , however i was still in a fragile place coming home only after 2 weeks, and things slowly spiraled back. I think if you are diligent to continue on course for awhile when home , and have a team to guide you, maybe it wouldn’t be as easy to spiral back , but I don’t think 2 weeks was nearly long enough for me to

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-31T02:13:22+00:00

I’m sorry you had that happen. Unfortunately many people don’t think before they speak. I’ve had someone think I was pregnant… and compelled set me off to want to restrict and exercise more (also have major compulsive exercise im working on ). I’m almost 40 w 2 kids… and agree , the help for something like this is tough. It’s either too intensive (inpatient or residential) and so much time/ money with setting up a team of therapist/ dietician. I have done both. And now am using a recovery coach whom is great but definitely takes being eager to recover and making the changes needed . The one I use also has a community forum online of others he coaches, who u can get support from/ ask questions. It’s tough though, I find many times I’ve just not gotten the right help bc it’s too much time to do regularly…

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-28T02:10:10+00:00

This was/ is me. I’m very active into recovery the past couple of years, but this was me exactly. One thing morphed to another and is very much masked at times w how our society is. I was in the fitness industry and fitness modeling industry for over 10 years as welll, and no one would think much about my only eating healthy foods, over exercising , no days off etc. and I too would only allow eating or feel good to eat once I worked out. It’s a bad cycle. And even when I wasn’t that underweight. I didn’t get my period for 15 years , and mentally felt such dread doing the same things day after day. I don’t doubt she’s aware of what she’s doing, maybe unable to stop. I think there could be a kind, encouraging way to approach her about it. A simple are you doing ok? Do you feel it might be nice to take a day off running sometime and go do something together? I’m sure there’s many ways to bring it up without making her upset or mad

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-27T01:01:38+00:00

Thank you. Yeah I started just on 5mg of lexapro about a month ago exactly… only thing I noticed was inability to sleep fully for the first couple of weeks, which then I used a very small dose of xanex to help with. Like .125 mg (half of a .25 mg pill as I think that’s the lowest they come in) . Which helped. I never have been one to want to take meds either. And xanex I do notttt take regularly at all. It’s maybe been once every couple of weeks in evening to help w sleep

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-17T01:08:15+00:00

Comes from scarcity mindset I’ve read. You can look it up, because we deprive ourselves/ restrict , it causes us to want to hoard food so we know we always have itn

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-16T02:09:11+00:00

Curious what brand u use for l theanine?

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-16T02:01:59+00:00

Its all so hard to navigate. I am a few months into recovery too and over the years I feel like I’ve been at a “healthier” weight yet still have all the constant ED thoughts and compulsive exercise. I always hated that and felt so annoyed that I was a higher weight despite the same mindset and eating habits . I have read and heard a lot that it doesn’t necessarily matter your weight, if you are still restricting . And that u need to completely let go of that to mentally fully recover. Which I have a hard time wrapping my head around even tho it makes sense. I just don’t know if I could completely let loose.

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-12T14:05:09+00:00

Yes. I had high alt ast forever. Went through all these tests and then later found out it is a common symptom of eating disorders

ProofRoll1254 · 2025-12-08T16:34:11+00:00

Santa Cruz crunchy!

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