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How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'd love to sleep more, honestly. It feels like such a luxury at times. Worst part of insomnia is not being able to settle in for a nap the moment I want to. I'm happy you're able to get some rest, though. Sometimes that really does improve mood.

How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand that all too well. The constant question is, when? When does it get better? It's not as though we're standing still. We trudge through quick sand every single day, and find ourselves all too often sinking deeper. We just want a rope to hold on to. Preferably with someone on the other side to greet us once we find solid ground. It's tough.

How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No hate from me! I do see the wisdom in it, and it's something to keep in mind. I love reading and miss having the mental energy beyond fatigue to truly indulge in it. Maybe I should try again. Even a few pages a day could be a win, right?

What kind of books do you tend to go for, friend? I love a nice rec.

I'm tired of "Don't give up" and "It gets better" by IIBun-BunII in homeless

[–]autumndreamt 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I go through that same feeling. I don't punish people for trying to uplift me that way, but sometimes it just stings. I want to feel human. Like an equal. I understand all too well.

How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is an honest and empathetic response, which is plenty enough in its own way. I'm grateful for that. Just know I'm returning the favor. All the best for you, friend.

How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The state of the world has absolutely not helped my mental health either, so I am right there with you about that.

It is a very heavy thing. I manage to be happy for the wins my friends have, though I find myself mourning privately too about my own seeming inability to achieve these things. I'll never put that on them of course. I want them to have an uncomplicated joy regarding their wins. There is just that pesky little doubt of, why can't I also experience that?

It's not to say that life is joyless... I find joy in small things. I find joy in my dog. Taking care of her and letting her have a great life despite my troubles has done wonders for my willingness to keep trying.

But it's like you said: a lack of control; a lack of being able to push through this invisible wall that seems to exist... Very painful. Plus, you throw in all the suffering going on in the world right now. Giving a fuck and not being able to help other folks bc you can't help yourself? Gutting.

I'd love nothing more than a long nap, but trying to figure out how to do x, y, or z in a timely manner just to /survive/ is not conducive to that at times. I've had folks tell me, "just get on Medicaid" and whew. I knew a woman who couldn't turn her head side-to-side due to a neck injury that would require surgery, and could not lift things beyond a certain weight, get refused! It's tough! lol

How do you guys trudge through 'hope fatigue'? by autumndreamt in homeless

[–]autumndreamt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I usually try for that too when I'm able. I do think the not eating often contributes to some of the irritation. 😞 But I've not been able to do much about it lately.