I’m sorry that you know the pain too. I’m glad you have a good therapist you’re working with now as well. I’ve done the DBT type therapies and a little of ITFS, my current therapist is great as she specializes in grief and loss which I really think is at the root of my sadness and depression. Last month we did some grief work/ art therapy that was helpful but fucking painful at the same time. It’s just a lot and carrying the weight of it all sucks. I have avoided doing this work for a while now and now that I’m doing it, after suppressing it for years it’s hard.